[ a new emarking j0urney]

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2008-03-04T08:26:00.000-08:00

got this from sok's blog
http://www.youtube.com/v/3QUh6CLBZN8">

talented aint she? she's just six years old!

169

2008-02-03T05:56:00.000-08:00

yummy veggie dim sum =)) super duper cheapppp!

our hotel bedroom suite!

our hotel suite 2!

the uber comfy bed! =)

our hotel toilet!

HK pretty night view and my gorgeous babes!

us at da yu san!

yeaa i tripped the steps here. =/

baobei babe and mie!

downing HK famous uber big cuppa milk tea!

CBD day

pretty pretty CBD view of theirs! the buildings had changing light shows too!

the tram to take to the peak!

the uber expensive houses on the peak!

day view from the peak!

=) night view from the peak!

jas at mdm tussad's wax museum!

against the sumo!

catching up with yao ming!

look here!!

awwwwwwws!

i hope ur wife will win the upcoming election! jia u!

bond's new found disciple!
HAHAHAHAHAS

my artistic flare!

royalties!

getting some hollywood cuddles!

thrills!

a shot at the CBD area!

at HK airport bus terminal!

168

2008-01-10T07:00:00.000-08:00

i miss you love. =))

167

2008-01-09T22:54:00.000-08:00

guess where i'm blogging now?

right outside SMA office 7th floor! HAHAHAS one new feat before i graduate!
i've climbed the 4th floor with jasmine.
slept in t1a classrooms overnight
LOLS. cant get aniting off my head now.

hmmms. practical exams is starting in half an hour.
half prepared feelings plus half anxiety.
last practical exam of the year. of my time in poly. of my 3 years in poly.

i've got a great morning today. darl bought heart filled love breakfast today. cheese and egg sandwich! =)) breakfast in bed plus sending me to school! thanks baby! -hugs-
and he promised me a trip this coming may! -BEAMS-
PLUS maybe some red packet money to HK! HAHAHAHAS!
lucky lucky girlfriend i am =))

marketing duty tomorrow= losing voice again!
=/

166

2008-01-06T06:08:00.000-08:00

the question kept resurfacing itself in my head sub-consciously
its too late i guess to take a step back to see if it was right after all
am i too overly paranoid
or is this just a passing phrase of cross-roads

i guess i rather realise that i'm making the wrong decision now
then realising it later when darl is away
at least i would have him to fall back to coax me back everything is alright
things would be better in a more desirable state
cos somehow i feel that i'm not gonna take it well if things really turn out otherwise

i've got too much too lose
and each day i was praying and hoping my guiding stars would shine on me
and let me know take this path with confidence jus like every other cross-roads
i've faced for the past nineteen years
and i find the prayer getting increasingly louder each night when i'm alone
believing in yourself
seems like a sky high phrase now to me
i could not seem to embrace and do it

165

2008-01-05T06:44:00.000-08:00

its just a few more days to exams.

we'll be flying to Hong Kong after that.

arrange the marketing gathering

start on work on first feb

embarking on a new phrase of life

i do hope everything turns out well after that

its the best bet now

164

2008-01-02T07:50:00.000-08:00

i've finally found someone's blog.

and i'm not saying who!

HAHAHAS =)

but it makes me a happy girl reading *ahems* blog.

but adapting some from *ahems* blog. lets call *ahems* h for now. =)

Your relationship with h is:
someone whom i can lose touch for a long time but yet the cozyness never fades. love and hate relationship too. cos h always bottles up his/her feelings and i really really hope i can one day help h to relieve them..and yeaA thats the thing i hate about h! but oh well.. i still love h at the end of the day. =))

Your 5 impressions of h:
sweet, fun-loving, caring, cheery, gorgeous

The most memorable thing h had done for you?
a photo collage. =))

The most memorable words h had said to you?
that h will always be there for me as a listening ear.

if she becomes your lover, you will?
pamper h with my abundance of care and love

if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
tell me wads on h's mind!!

if he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
HAHAHAAHAS! u don wanna know =P

if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
nah the love parts overwrites the hate anytime. =))

the most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
giving H my biggie hug and let h knows i'll be there till h's great grandchildrens are all married! =D

your overall impression of him/her is?
my dearest*ahem*and sweetheart -hugs-

this is the first time in my life i'm doing such test! cos i used to think it is kinda kinda draggy. but oh well~ anything for H!

and presenting to you my beloved H!

tada! my beloved grogeous jie for 19th years of my life.
knowing you as been the greatest gift from god jie. =)

and this song is to you...thank you for being there for me through my 19th years of life. u were never out of touch in my life despite our busy lifestyles now. and thank you for ur words of concern every now and always to check i'm ok and living well...it really touches me a lot each time i rec'ved ur call and how you always went through so much trouble for fetching me around and saving me all the travelling and showering me with the best gifts through my growing years. giving me the best foods around each time too. homemade cookies since young and tonnes of tlc foods =)) i really really love you my sweetest =))

She, won¢t get off the phone, she won¢t leave me alone
When I'm talking to that guyShe, can be a real nightmare, gets me to do her hair
And says it never turns out right
But then I put on a face, she can tell
Cause she knows me so well
Chorus
Who¢s has been my closest friend, someone who will be there till the end
My sister, sisterDeeper than the deepest sea, no one loves you like a family
My sister, sisterShe, reads my diary, she borrows clothes from me
And I never get them back again
And she (and she), locks the bath room door, says five minutes more
And now and then run still not inAnd sometimes we fight, every family does (oh yeah)
But that can¢t change our love
Who¢s has been my closest friend, someone who will be there till the end
My sister, sister
Deeper than the deepest sea, no one loves you like a family
My sister, sister
To fell and break the good times, who helped me through the hard times
Who bring me down to roof, remind me what¢s in coming
And who comes first? Who comes first?
Gotta tell me who I'm talking 'boutMy sister, sister(Oh yeah) and who comes first?
Aren¢t no doubt about itMy sister, sister
She, watches out for me, I know she'l always beBy my side (by my side)
Who¢s has been my closest friend, someone who will be there till the end
My sister, sisterDeeper than the deepest sea, no one loves you like a family
My sister, sister
Who¢s has been my closest friend, someone who will be there till the end
My sister, sister
Deeper than the deepest sea, no one loves you like a familyMy sister, sister

163

2007-12-25T18:41:00.000-08:00

my new addiction song. =)

lyrics are super sweeett!

just got back from msia with sok,grandma and parents.

had the 3 days religious class and now to projects and tonnes of e-learning!

31st is coming!! cant wait. =D

162

2007-12-18T08:49:00.000-08:00

i hope i can finally sleep late tomorrow! =/

beeen super busy recently since hols started!
went to bring daddy's friends to chinatown and sentosa yst.
finally caught the song of the sea =))
kinda cool for 6 bucks. but the show is only for half an hour! =(
and all four ladies were caught in the rain the whole time we're there!
finally get to chill at palawan beach after soo soo long!
and the entry tics prices increased again! arrghs! high standards of living we have here!

took daddy's phone to repair today. and dropped off xmas gift plus donuts which i bought for the dearie chubby jie mei jas. wah laos. never see her for a few days she put on weight again! her tshirt bursting alrdy i think! tsk! to think i still buy oreo and custard flavors for her! =P

met hao for lunch aft that.
its been a long time since we catch up and yeaa. glad we did. =)
had free lunch b4 heading to meet mom to accompany her for her hair cut!
picked up dad's frens again.
they visited my place.
and off they went again to msia.

had a long talk with dearest just now.

thank u for ur reassurance and i promise it wont happen again...i meant it..

161

2007-12-16T09:32:00.000-08:00

addicted to this song recently. =)
kinda moving whenever i hear it.

finally caught enchanted yesterday with dearest. he resents cartoons still -.-
but oh well. we enjoyed it. haven watched movies with him for ages!
came back home for laksa that mom made and while darl and mom are going crazy over kuang tong tian xia.
i went to sleepp!
=))

went to kukup to visit my grandaunt and aunts. had a great time there plus i bought tonnes of DVDs. HAHAHAS.
but mom reminded me i've got projs to do!
so the DVD gotta wait. =(
played a round of mahjong with the pros today.
had a scolding from grandma too!
she claimed i suck at it. -.-

pigged out at grandaunt's house today like mad! everyone said i put on weight!!
how to swim recently when its raining like mad! -.-

gonna bring daddy's taiwanese friends to sentosa tomorrow =)
missed d sun.

d birds finally came over!
it sure does add more liveliness to my house and mom is starting to talk to them like i do now!
HAHAHAHAS.
hmmms. but the female bird is always bullying the male one! and he even had an open wound on his body now =(

hyper as ever!

finally a nice shot!

having her mouth FULL

yeaaa. and thats the poor battle wound of the male bird. =((

thanks babe on the entry on your blog. =))
we'll never lose contact and yeaa. i'll be your pouring bucket till the day when we grow old and see our grandchildren running around. =))
-HUGS-
i'm always here for you sweet

160

2007-12-13T19:32:00.000-08:00

the final port project mad craze dash is over.
just because of a word "HISTORY"

oh well, a lesson well learnt. just make sure the 2 following project have to be done cautiously. =/

Hols are finally here! but drowned with law and chartering project. =/ and tonnes of religious class commitments. oh well. my school days are gonna be over soon in poly in about like a month's time. time sure do pass fast.

no more having the previlege of being late and sleeping whenever i want to.
no more long breaks in between and chilling with my peeps.
no more dashing around 7th floor like a happy kid disturbing all the lecturers.
and no more macdonalds breakfast!

signed my appt letter yesterday. crossing my fingers that they don underpay me now.
Chartering Executive. yeaa. they better make me fix ships and do all d commercial work and paying me only that amount of salary! 6 mths probation later and see if there is any increament. hopefully 200 more to make it 2K! =) BUT CPF deductions make everything so little! how about a 400 bucks increament den? =D but leave are unpaid! plus medical benefits have to wait till 6 months later! hmmms. cant wait for Aug 2008 to come now! den can take leave.

mom was saying i wont have carried forward leave. more like i will over-used my leave. HAHAS

daddy kept reminding me if its too tough to cope with my studies, i'm suppose to quit! yes~ quit. i've yet to decide to take part time or full time yet. maybe work for a year first before i see how. =/

xmas is coming! =)

159

2007-12-11T07:55:00.000-08:00

FYP is finally over.
and yea i've no idea what i've been busy with since i haven touched on port project yet.
jas say latest by wed MUST SETTLE
gonna go OTC to get my job appointment letter on thurs i think.

i'm finally beginning to really sleep well ever since sun.
yeas. i'm loving it. since i find myself not sleeping well for the past months.
=)) papers are not bad. altho darl thinks i'm too complacent with myself.
oh wells. i rewarded myself with tonnes of shopping recently. gem stones bangles are sweet and trendy!
got a couple of long tunics and shoes too!
yeaa. hope FYP grades will be ok.

i'm looking forward to aunty's pet birds coming over. its nice to have someone to talk to whenever u feel like.. and yea..
i hope i'm not too attached to them till i cant bear to return them to aunty. =/
hehs. dean seemed to have a good time taking care of them that time. i hope i will too. =)) darl's baby brother and sista! LOLS. since aunty calls them her babies. =X

hmmms. i hope i can have d birds more often over when darl is sailing den. i guess i wouldnt feel so lonely them i suppose....

mummy wants me to start studying soon. she claims its my last lap. oh well~ Jan 14th is my final ICA lap and i'll be over and done with exams. but better get the projs outta the way soon~

yayness! i've finally gt to watch br0ther bear 2! nita is sweet. koda is still as bubbly and lovely as ever. =)

6 more months to go and i'll have to see darl in year 2009. yeaa.

158

2007-11-26T03:45:00.000-08:00

got a lovely surprise from Capt Fedrick! he gave me a gift of appreciation for helping him to emcee for the law conference! and guess what it is dearest diary?

yeaa~ kinda crazy but i got my first tiffany & co for FREE.

l0ls.
thanks capt!

another emcee-ing event on fri!
lets hope capt sahwan will give me another lovely surprise i HOPE!
and i heard the reception food is from some posh place and i kinda HINTED STRONGLY i'm a veggie! LOLS. =X but oh well eating expensive desserts for free again is still a sure welcome you know? =))

sighs back to fyp now! jia u sherrrrr! another 2 wks of shit! and massive xmas shopping aft that!

i din getta meet ting and xianie and est today! sorrie gurls. =((

157

2007-11-25T20:25:00.001-08:00

i guess the aftermath of the whole FYP and exams shit is coming one shot. yeaa the 2am or later slping times and having to drag myself to school after that week after week is causing my stupid flu, cough, sore throat and fever PLUS stomach cramps downing on me now and refusing to go away.

sighs~ i cant wait for 7th dec where the whole shit will be over and thinking about chartering and law projects later.

oh well to make myself feel better, so i decided to note down some happy moments!

choc fondue treats from love!

look at our spread!

flowers for aunty from my parents on her bday! love the bday dinner we had! simply sumptuous

=))

okie i'm feeling better.
and i realise all my photobucket had some past pics!
ehs sistas can send me some pics we used to take?
I LOST ALL OF THEM! =C
pretty please send me whatever u all had =(((

156

2007-11-15T03:23:00.000-08:00

crying does help~
after typing the previous entry and i called darl just to cry on the phone. kinda a meanie since he had a long long long day. but i couldnt help feeling better when he kept coaxing me till i stop and amuse me with his army jokes as usual. =))

triple yayness for this sat. maybe rushing for my FYP on fri night and sat noon take a long break~ =)) a planned outing to movies, musical fountain and Café del Mar with darl. =)

BUT i just realise something for the musical fountain! downer~ =(

Please do note that both shows on weekends and public holidays are especially crowded and are always sold out. Please come early on the day of show to purchase your tickets at the Beach Station to avoid disappointment. We appreciate your cooperation in making your experience memorable and pleasant.

blahs. how how how. =/ hmmmms.

so far papers are OKAY. erms. except for the screwed up in port. i don wanna think abt d FYP aftermath now. -.-

Latio Sport is darn gorgeous when i saw my aunt's car today! wooots! maybe next time i can have a murano as a family car and Latio Sport for myself. HAHAHAS.
bank acct is depleting! booos!

SISTAS! i've only talked to est and aud and ting (sorrie for bugging you tremendously =X)!! whr is auddy and xianie and yinn!! auddie finish her As alrdy la. but still REFUSE to ans my prompt online now! xianie is busy with her school work now according to her blog! and yinn is preparing for her exams! hmmms. lets have a sistas outing soon aft my FYP kaes. =)

155

2007-11-13T06:09:00.000-08:00

i need to rant! yes yes rant rant.

i'm in the worst shit now~

woots. its the best time of the year~

i know i should be looking for solutions instead now. but i'm seriously not in the least mood to do aniting about it.

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO DIE ON ME NOW.

last night was horrible. i hate the fact that i was sobbing like shit on the phone with darl while he is trying to find means to d/l a adobe program for me for that damn pre ICA revision slides.

why do i have to be such a complete idiot to com stuff. yes. i cant even reformat this bloody com get the freaking chinese thing working. and i even can forget to take d sound card from joe ma so my com is ABSOLUTELY mute now. yea mute. freaking i tunes i not working too!

GREAT! thats how the exams week and nearing fyp date submission dates should be!

port planning paper A has bid yours truly good bye.

FYP~ yea i hope i can just get it over and done with.

FYP info is gone. i'm soooo sick of it~ wen asked if i could recover today. even the sim lim guy announced its death~ sighs. i'm sorrie wen. super sorrie. thank u for being so understanding too~ =/

and capt tong has yet to even read our report yet i think.
HAHS. "I'll try to comment if i know how to!" was the only thing he said

daddy bought me a pair of shoes today~

i'm sorrie darl. i made u go through all the shit and trouble becos of my com despite u being so tired and u even had to bring the CPU down to sim lim alone. and thank u for bearing my hysterical cries last night. i love you dearest~

Will and Elizabeth - Thank God I Found You

2007-11-07T13:13:00.001-08:00

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby, I'm so thankful
I found you

thank you my dearest =))
cant believe we're gonna see the fireworks and countdown soon again~

happy 22 months and 8 days love =))

High School Musical 2- Gotta Go My Own Way(Official Video)

2007-10-29T09:25:00.001-07:00

got it from babe sok

=) the lyrics is really really something~

Say Goodnight, Not Goodbye

2007-10-24T01:39:00.001-07:00

Say Goodnight not goodbye you will never leave my heart behind.
Like the path of a star I'll be anywhere you are.
In this heart that lies beneath the colds in this secret place uncertain keep my light in your eyes say good night not goodbye.
Don't fear when you dream waking up was never what it seemed.
Like a chill very deep like a promise meant to keep you are everything you aught to be so just let your heart reach out to me. I'll be right by your side say good night not goodbye.
You are everything you aught to be so just let your heart reach out to me.
Keep the light in your eyes say goodnight not goodbye say good night not goodbye.

Lay your hands

2007-10-08T04:22:00.001-07:00

=) talented simon webb

swan princess for longer than forever

2007-10-02T07:05:00.001-07:00

a fairytale dream =)

154

2007-09-19T20:10:00.000-07:00

i'm blogging at grandma's place now.

received a call frm her this morning that she is in a lot of pain. cabbed down to her place and i saw her limping. i saw her yst night and she looks so different. she was constantly looking for things to support her and she looked so frail when dad and i helped her to doc.

the doc says she need a walking stick and a knee guard and i saw her teared slightly. she used to boast how fit as a fiddle she was. but oh well. it caused a lot of hurt in her pride. i hate the tears welling up in her eyes. i hate the way she always think she is a burden to us when she is not.

sighs.

i'm meeting baby tonight. after soo soo long. =)

gonna go work soon. took d morn off.

get well soon my beloved grandma.

153

2007-09-11T20:18:00.000-07:00

good day people.

my results are ok. but its still hanging in the air kinda. HMMMS.i guess u cant worry over things which u cant have control of and that u know u've done your very best given that kinda circumstances at that time?

yes. i'll stop thinking of it and think abt my new buys instead.

i'm not getting my desired wallet which meant good news. hahahas. cos i wanted to gt it if i've done terribly but at least i see some As.

-shrugs-

darl darl darl. i miss u!

thanks sistas.
yinn- thanks for accompanying thru the long noon
est- thanks for the fun times we had using the web cam. but u're a lousy DJ! keep playing the same song
ting-thanks for accompanying me through the night. -big hugs-
xianie-thank u for ur drink plus the web cam session and stupid giggling times~

i'm blessed! =)

sok! thanks for ur comforting emails! =)

yes attention sistas!
xianie can be married off alrdy! ting and i haven seen any of us soo far that have the glee on the face and enthusiasm to be married ASAP kinda. l0ls. so ting and i had agreed her dowry price for RC to pay is $2.50(price for a bowl of noodles)*5=$12.50

LOLS

sin jie's wedding is here and i nidta buy a dress soon! =(

wooots! click 5 rocks! est lets go for their concert if they are in s'pore! LOLS

The Click Five - Catch Your Wave

2007-09-11T05:17:00.001-07:00

hehs. in love with them!

The Click Five - Jenny (Video)

2007-09-11T05:06:00.001-07:00

awwwwsss!

152

2007-09-10T20:18:00.000-07:00

i'm wishing for many many things now.
the thots seem to be gushing through my head since morn.
and it hadnt been any better since d first thot that strike me.

i know dad meant well by telling me all those yst. but why do i seemed more weighed down.
"its jus dat if spending ur money i can spend more at ease. don give urself too much pressure."
many times i just cant wait to gt out and work.
i know he's tired since working at d age of eleven.
i guess dats why i insisted on d AMC route.
its d fastest way to get out.

many adults used to say
"why so eager to go and work? u'll be working for more dan the next 40 yrs of ur life anyway"
hahahas. but it just doesnt seem to apply to this part of my life i guess.
dad's tired. mom's too. and i really cant wait to relieve whatever they are going thru.

why did grandma have to be sick at that time?
why did dad have to be sick at that time?
why did that accident have to take place too?
i know i shouldnt be saying all these. but the aftermath of everything was too much for me..
could i have done better den if all these din happen?

i cant afford to fall.. i really cant..

151

2007-09-04T19:05:00.000-07:00

sighs. early in the morn, i've already got nothing to do! boring~ =(
throat's killing me too.
yest marketing presentation was good. =) learnt a lot of commercial tactics of being a choosy customer~ =X din realise SP had a commercial communication dept! l0ls. yea. d presentation was organised by dem. and i quite like the indian HOD too. hahahas. he was pretty stern when he was talking to the advertiser but when its us, he's a friendly old man again! =)

hmmms. no more halves day. took 2 halves consecutively on both days! gotta make up for it on sats!

spend a really really good time with darl last night. =)

get well soon little sore throat.
all d cough syrups are making me wobbly. =(

150

2007-09-03T19:02:00.000-07:00

dearest dearest diary!

i cant wait for thos evening to spend some quality time with hun today! last weekend was spending quality time with his mom nt him..hmmms plus he promise me some pizza treats! TUMMY STRETCHING! hees.

fyp's interviews are getting more and more interesting! i'm starting to think all CFOs are super duper nice nice people! FSL CFO thanked me for the card! but i'm really really feeling bad for the card we sent to rickmers. kinda untidy. =X

shopping and spending has been on my agenda lately. yes! my black dress is finally coming plus i bought a dress frm bysi and darl got me a new book! the fair lady! gnaws! i'm addicted to it despite reading till d 2nd chap! gracious! =Xthe fair lady! gnaws! i'm addicted to it despite reading till d 2nd chap! gracious! i've yet to collect my gior pants tho! can d gior outlet at JP FASTER FASTER open! =)

HMMMS! i tried on d watch which darl will be getting for me on bday and i'm deciding on the colours still! green or brown? brown looks elegant while green is unique! nvms. i'll ask d buyer to choose! =X

i wanna watch d secret! =( adrian jus laughed at me for nt watching it la. grrr. the most i just rent d DVD. no big deal! BUT darl promise to watch the rat cartoon with me! -beams-

i'm on half day today! =D think i will go back sch and have a nice little treats of my beloved omelette cheese burger! SINFUL! i know~ =X

149

2007-08-29T23:08:00.000-07:00

dearest diary!

its raining out dere cats and dogs while i'm warmly wrapped in my wool jacket and sipping on my hot tea. =) the copier machine is spoilt! so 3 depts have to make do with one copier and i'm on d waiting list with no complains! HAHAHAS!

I'm growing fatter with grandma's ever so delicious dinners plus cheesy treats on mon and tues! oh wells. i thot i could control my diet today BUT in d end patricia gt me sushi for lunch. plus another supplier buffet was on again and i has chestnut plus mango pudding =X they say green tea helps in weight loss! so i'm on my second cup now!

bought mommy her fave crackers today too. office deliveries are nice! but burning a hole in my pocket money! =( i wanna watch ratou sth sth! the rat show! but darl is reluctant to watch it! sighs! plus the jay chou show! hmmms. think i'll jz catch that on a DVD or sth. =/

can the stupid movie voucher spree start soon! i'm only left with my last 2 vouchers! think d nxt time i buy i shall buy 10 tics! hehs so darl and i don have to watch selective shows only since he can only be out on weekends! oh and i'm going to the army open house somewhere d arena country club dere. any ladies wanna join? who knows can catch eye candies! SOK! your kinda thing! LOLS

oh yayss! gt my pay but i spend 500+ alrdy on d air ticket and bills!! BOOOO! thank god no CPF deduction~ -.-
i nid a new wallet! wallet falling apart but i think i eyed on one alrdy! hehs nvm. nxt mth can buy with my then salary! =D

148

2007-08-29T00:48:00.000-07:00

my hormones are raging! yes she is pissing me! HMMMMMS.

chill sher. its jus a hol job. even if aniting happens it doesnt bear ur signature! SO WHY BOTHER!
i nid more chocs to keep me up!

i had buffet today! supplier's treat at the workshop plus tung lok mooncake to take home yst! suppliers' of OTC are great generous people! =)) plus the 7th month prayer snacks which the co gave is not over yet. HAHAHAHAS. but i skipped all snacks! hehs. cos tummy stretching plus tonnes of cheese treats recently! =)

okie! 21sept shall be d end of it all! =)
tuition tonight plus tonnes of fyp to clear!

147

2007-08-28T01:06:00.000-07:00

"don blame your mom" yea i know. she has all the right reasons to keep me here. -shrugs-

i was just excitedly telling zhu jie how i wanna enjoy to the max over the weekends or something since it was my hols. but i realised something horrible. yea. when u know u din do well for your papers, no matter how much u tried to ignore it. it's still gonna come back to your mind. sorrie hun for telling you so flatly about my expectations for my grades.

browsing through SMF webby sure do make one feel worse. HAHAS

alright. time to snap out of these thots, whatever will come, will come.

i seriously just feel like crying now.

FYP is going on a good pace. the interview with the CFO is great and smooth. sorrie for the small hiccups wen. nice guy i muz say. =) bought muffins for darl's fam and joe ma yst at tanjong pagar. and oh! i gave myself a nice treat at the glass house coffee club yst. beginning to love it there~ awwws! but they don open for membership yet! shucks~
a gd place to distress! plus the citibank discounts makes its a more affordable place with many many cheese treats varities and smoothies! soothe my nerves there alone before meeting my grp for d interview.

i'm beginning to enjoy the little times alone sipping tea and watching the crowd go by... i guess that will be my new past time when darl is sailing. =)

ohhhh! my bigi spree is DELAY plus my dress too -pouts-

working with a stubborn woman is sure hard. EVEN my ever so lovely and nice accts people are all turning against her now. HAHAHAS. =X

retail therapy gotta stop and i promise darl on my accord, yes my own accord to do pedi only twice a year! if nt d bastarding session of being a FUTURE TAI TAI jus wont stop la!

oh yea! he brought me to a nice indian restaurant that day! and amazingly i took d spicy stuff without downing water like last time! and i took my lasi aft i finish my meal! the yogurt are pretty much untouched too~ =D

ok i'm bored now. they are paying me 6 bucks an hr to update my blog! HAHAHAHAS! but its tiring u know. u keep asking for work and she doesnt even respond to u!

Gwen Stefani - COOL

2007-08-14T09:29:00.001-07:00

the beginning is tooo LONG!

but gwen is PRETTY!

old video. but...

loving it still. =))

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2007-08-12T08:16:00.000-07:00

Reasons to know you're blessed

1. you come home stinking of alcohol and in a drunken stupor and your mom din bark at you but just sent loong loong messages to tell where you've gone wrong and that she still loves you dearly

2. you and your dad sit down and he warns u sternly not to do it again or he'll be real mad.

3. your boyfriend din make life difficult for you but comforts and lend u a shoulder to cry on and making u feel more safe than ever instead of being mad when he himself, is upset.

4. your dearest sista woke up at 4am getting so worried about your drunken state and lends u a listening ear with tonnes of TLC comforts.

5. your boyfriend's parents giving u an easy time by not asking u anything about what happen last night but instead prepares all your favourite food and tea.

Conclusion: i've done the biggest fault ever. critising people but at the end of the day. i made d mistake myself. AND no one gave me a hard time at all either. what i got in return was tonnes of TLC instead.

i seriously went overboard this time.

i'm sorrie mom. for making you feel so worried and tied with anxiety.

i'm sorrie dad. i betrayed your trust.

i'm sorrie hun. i betrayed your trust and din make good of my word.

i'm sorrie ting. i shld have known better.

i'm sorrie auntie and uncle. i guess i disappointed you.

i'm sorrie all.. i really learnt my lesson this time.

gwen stefani - 4 in the morning

2007-08-09T19:39:00.001-07:00

pretty pretty gwen steph. =)
dinno she had another nice song like this!

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2007-08-08T08:27:00.000-07:00

boos!

i'm feeling crap right now tho. exams have been

GREAT!

in a negative sense. honestly. i know my 3 papers As are gone.

reason one- write out of point like TOTALLY
reason two - missed out on question
reason three - i reallly reallly am dumb.

i don wanna think about it. i'm sick of crying. yes i think darl too i guess.
sometimes i really cant help admiring sok and jas. why could they jus pursue what they want and yea. get full support from their family?

i'm sorrie mom. i din mean to gt so hostile each time u bring up the sub. but on one hand i know i cant do aniting to make myself get in. its really hard given my yr one grades. somehow this pressure always getting me worked up throughout this study period but on the other. i guess darl is right she has the right to keep me by her side given what she's gone through and i cant compare myself with them. our families are so so different. oh yea. money makes the world go round too.

i seriously never felt so torn apart for a long time since O levels. its draining me and mom. and yea i know we're just containing all the anxiety inside us till when this exams period is over. i don like going there whether i'm eligible or not. its four freaking years. sighs. but but but.

i'm sick of buts.

oh yea.

xianie - hey. guess i can date u out more often given ur freed from attachment status now? =)
ting - studying~
aud - hey i'll date u out aft my exams this week alright? =)
est - hey busy gurl. how are u? =)
yinn- i'm seeing u on tues! =D

missing u gurls.

jie- i'm seeing u on sat at the hospital i presume. =) hope u've sort out ur thots now. -hugs-

darl - i'm so sorrie about what u have to go through now. so so sorrie.

When You´re Gone Avril Lavigne Official Video!!♪♫

2007-07-27T05:45:00.001-07:00

i'm loving this video. =))

yays. grandma's op is successful. =))

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2007-07-26T21:30:00.000-07:00

grandma is going for an op at 1.30pm. the adults are worried her heart couldn't take it as it is ballooning while her lungs are having fluids inside. 4 docs are gonna be present for her op i think.

dad's accident thing is in d midst processing.

and now..

dad is in hospital receiving his stitches. he injured his hand at work.

hahs. things just never stop happening don they? he refuse to let me accompany him down to the hospital.

wen kept buggin me on FYP. i know i've been a bad bad leader.

i've got fotang proj to do.

i've got e-learning to do.

i've gt my studying for next week exams marathon.

its all gonna be over soon i hope. i don think i can take any more new happenings.

hang in there. and be strong gurl. nothing's gonna beat u down.

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2007-07-24T09:35:00.000-07:00

dear diary.

i'm on the verge of breakdown soon i guess. just three more weeks to go.

grandma is in hospital due to a breakage in her uterus web. lotsa complications and drama these few nights and exams are due next week. her ops is due tomorrow. but the doc dare nt make any decisions as she is having fever plus her heart issue plus her fatty liver which ran out of place issue plus many many things. hope she'll be fine soon. grandpa is also tired out recently. hope he'll nt fall sick too.

i seriously donno if i can even pass now when i haven start on anything. not even FYP! great shermain. well done. and daddy gt into an accident too~ how nice life is yea?

travelling up and down recently in and out of hospital, weekends burnt last week as i was having class in m'sia. and NAPFA is due on thurs. HAHS! think i'm better off dead.

sorrie for the blahs. i jus needed someone to scream and yell at. yea yea yea~

assignments to be done.
studying to be done.

shermain lim~ i seriously think u're better off dead.

fark~

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2007-07-08T01:17:00.000-07:00

other than feeling remorseful now..
i cant feel aniting anymore.
i'm sorrie.
i seemed to have forgotten how u've spoilt me.
giving in to me to stay for two more years.
but what happens in d end
is u having to bear with my temper, my nonsense and all the fights.
are u regretting right now for staying on?

i've been too self-centred for the past one week.
but right now i cant seem to find the courage to say sorrie to u.
maybe i've lose all the courage that i had to make sure i'll keep it and not do it again.
and i've lose all the courage to let myself believe i'll not hurt u again.

but still...
i'm really sorrie lit'martin.
i'm really am.
i'm sorrie i ever made u feel that ur stay here is not worthwhile.
i'm sorrie for making u go through hell these whole week.
i'm sorrie for hurling accusations at u.
i'm sorrie that i hurt u.

i'm sorrie hun..

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2007-07-07T10:45:00.000-07:00

hey world~

its been an eventful week. i guess i learnt something out of it. but oh well i guess its over.

thanks sistas for accompanying me thru the teary evening. taking my mind off things for a while.
sok~ thanks for being there when i broke down at d convention hall today. =)
thanks gurls. =))

life's ok other than that~ school's ok. SMA's day is coming up and apparently some political strife is coming up again. oh wells.

photos of batam trip!

daddy in a holiday mood before boarding the ferry!

joe ma and mummy wore uniform!

ahh! my fave avocado drink with sinful choc syrup!

their donuts are TWENTY TIMES better than donut factory!

they've got a farm at the hotel there!

loves!

loving d cozy environment there!

daddy took me out on a jet ride!

our pastime! l0ls

and i had two sinful buys! =X

crazy moments of JESS

crazy moments two! in class! l0ls

sun is tomorrow gurls! cheers!

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2007-06-24T04:06:00.000-07:00

24 June 07! the day when my room has a new look!

love the deco!

THANK YOU
a) Daddy for disliking my old dressing table soo much and keep insisting i changed it! i love the new greeen cupboard! yaysss!
b) Kelvin Daddy for being the greatest for the best prezzie ever! love the mirrors and two shelves u made! love you toooo! =D

and now the hall has a new look too other than d air conn!!
it feels like a condo now! =))

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2007-06-23T02:02:00.000-07:00

is it a cycle or sth?

whenever results are due to be out i'll feel like i'm like a walking zombie. doing stupid things to make surrounding ppl around me unhappy. it happened last year too. and i had a huge scolding by mummy for some stupid reason. every other min my mind will float to my results and before i know it. stupid things happened again.

sighs. and one stupid thing jus happened.

thanks ting for accompanying me last night. =) remember u owe me a 6D5N trip! thats is if u lose think its valid till we turn -- la. so please let me win! REMEMBER I LOVE U OK! soooo u shld love me to an extent of nt letting me lose too! and who knows i get u ur fave LG aircon! LOLS!

i realise my estate isnt safe at night~ -.- no wonder need so many cameras around at d void deck! and ting and i had a serious breakout of pimples! SISTAS! don ever go lit' india for threading ok!! my orchard threading is soo much better!

uncle is suggesting to celebrate with mummy since their bday is 3 days apart! l0ls. i haven thot of any present to get him yet. =/ die~ maybe i'll jus get him a....

going batam nxt wkend. hope i can gt to enjoy some spa or massage. =)))

okkkkk...i finally understand something of my FYP stuff thru aunt aliena's explaination. but i'm too lazy to start aniting yet. -.-

Here's my ranking for my fear's ranking
a) Transport Modelling
b) S&P
c) SCM
d) Bunkering
e) Marketing
f) Port Agency

let nxt week pass soon please. =(

hey soook! thanks for last evening. =)

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2007-06-21T08:41:00.000-07:00

its a LAZY DAY.

i'm supposed to do my FYP but i didn't! i just merely watched TV and went online. =/ wasted my day but at least i try arranging an interview. but only one co was willing. think gotta call fatt zai tomorrow. he called back jus now. but i missed his call. =X

gotta start on my FYP tomorrow. l0ls. promise i will.

great! the hall's air con is coming tomorrow! think i gotta den start on my FYP at 6am tomorrow den. l0ls. but oh wells. darl praised me for my research! =)) guess i finally conquered the barrier in me. i mean i FINALLY know what i'm doing. l0ls.

met my FYP grp on mon. we're going on a good pace now! yayyyyss~! hanged ard at TCC with them before heading for lunch with wenn and we practically walked 90% of the shopping malls in raffles areas! found many darn nice and cheap heels shops! bought 2 pairs of earrings too! =D
darl know about it! =P

okie gotta go! meeeting super gurl tomorrow! =D

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2007-06-14T01:41:00.001-07:00

hey world. =)

i've been too lazy to blog i suppose. guess i'm just CHERISHING every moment of this well-deserved 2 weeks break. yes! exams are over and the last thing that i wanna think about this time is actually my lousy results. i'll be GLAD if i can score 60 plus. three hour rest per day marathon is finally over. -.-

papers are getting tougher each year. 2nd year syallbus is the best afterall. pure memorising and vomiting without going thru the fear of knowing u cant score. yes without. blahs. pure enjoyment now shld be my core objective now! =))

watching wei siao pasta now too! l0ls. i know altho i haven watch such a kiddy show for a long time. erms kiddy in a sense it is not so much fairy tale but maybe i feel so old when watching. hahahas. no longer the affected emo kinda after seeing one sad scene. blahs. guess i'm too grown up for such now. -.- but i just wanna relieve the lower secondary times of fantasizing if it happened on me! dumb i know~

haven met up with my gurls for a long time. seen ting, yinn, sok, jas and gene. but where is xianie,est and aud? =/ meeting vane for high tea later. l0ls. tai tai times!

i'm beginning to feel stronger to face it. =)) maybe its because of the reassuring talk on the beach dat night. thanks hun for being so patient and compromising of my harsh moods for the past months and hearing all my woes that night under the skyful of stars. loves -hugs-

hols are ending next week. FYP is on a good pace now. =) i see light in it as my group members now are more united i suppose. all's understanding and willing to be taught and sharing of info patiently. =))

planning on a HK graduation trip with JESS. need about $1.2K! den what about my trip with darl in june'08? faints- i need a $2K plus savings.

good bye for now shopping~

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2007-05-28T09:01:00.000-07:00

l0ls. i can finally logged into blogger. =)) at th wrong time tho. cos i'm suppose to be mugging my port agency now. =(

exams next week. =(( simply aint prepared. cant believe i broked down many times this week bcos of the stupid exam stress. nvms. class atmosphere aint great either. but thank god. i've got my JESS peeps. =))

sok and i keep claiming we cant wait for graduation. hahs. looking at things now... 3 years is coming to an end after i finish my remaining 3 quads of sch term and i'm freed from politics and all. great!

i'm struggling with my thots at times. maybe i'm afraid. afraid of losing what i had now. afraid of losing this closeness between us. afraid that things will change and we can never go back to where we used to be. but i don suppose our relationship was jus made on how long we've been together to endure the long distance and time. it was how much we've been through. its coming soon.. in next 13 mths time.
each time when you're there for me, it jus makes it harder to let go. but each time the harder it is to let go, the stronger i believe we'll be there eventually. i used to cry for endless nights. wondering when could i have an affirmative ans from you that what i'm waiting for, will be the ending i wished for.. and i think i seem to get it now...and i seem to find myself falling for you all over again and just wished months would stop passing like that. nevertheless, thank you darl, ..
its still my fave pic afterall. =))

i promised not to shop for GSS but the sprees keeping prompting up! the discount letters kept appearing plus smses from these idiot shops! life's getting harder man. -.- oh well!

keep mugging!

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2007-04-17T22:00:00.000-07:00

i could finally log into blogger after so long! think there is some cock up in my browser at home.

school had finally started and amazingly i manage to stay low profile still. thank god~ kinda not looking extremely forward for my 1st week in school, but at least i'm feeling better than the 1st moment when i stepped into the campus. =))

watched tonnes of VCDs at home before school reopen. had my unforgettable drunk night with sistas at HV plus my catching up with vane jie by the pool. =)

mon was alright. was practically dragging my feet into school for my 8am lesson. but i think i've selected the right gems i suppose. better pronounciation for better speech. l0ls. think i've be a darn fluent speaker on grad night den. =P i suppose the perk of the day was darl's constant messages to ask if i'm feeling better in school and cosying with ting and est. =)) bet they will nvr wanna go back anchor point EVER AGAIN! LOLS! went queensway tooo.. arrghs. its nvr nice to window shop there somehow. -.-

tues was alright. l0ng l0ng day in school and my classmates and i went to raffles city for free ben and jerry's ice-cream! l0ve the oatmeal and strawberry cheesecake. =D

and finally wed was a downer! was suppose to meet est today to swim but it rained. gnaws! but jas was saying if the weather turn better we will still go down! weees~

have been slacking a lot in class la. SLEEPING IN FACT. but seriously i cant seem to pay attention cos i'm WITHOUT nOtes! better buck up next week. =) FYP has been a real HEADACHE. sighs. and guess what could be a even more downer point for my whole of yr3? its that 2 veg stall closed down at the same time. crappp~

hmmmms.... my honestly.. at the end of the day i still feel secretly happy. cos darl don haveta go taiwan PLUS he can message me two more times a day! =)))))

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2007-04-02T20:35:00.001-07:00

my mind is in a whirl now. sighs. i'm dying to talk to him.

the phone bill did startled me. what am i gonna do without his calls by then? 12USD for a min. hahs.

capt chatur asked me out for lunch. how the hell am i suppose to go when there is just me and him? pushed back once and twice and thrice and now he asked me to reserve this thurs for him. -.- and i jus realise i cant act sick since i'm attending the maritime exibition tomorrow and capt lim will be there. so since i can attend that exibition he'll be thinking why cant i go for the lunch. gnaws! i nid to talk to darl.

going to poly marina with jas in d evening on fri to see the bapok night. since she's going alone and gene is not accompanying her i don have much choice. she helped me tonnes during the exams. but i'm not staying overnight. but the tot of seeing those people kinda irk me.

the rumours are back. expected. cant believe my year one political strife days are still not over. whatever.

my nose kept running and my body ache is still acting up. arrghs~!

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2007-04-02T20:35:00.000-07:00

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2007-04-01T22:24:00.000-07:00

work's finally over! but i started off my first h0ls with a flu! planned to go sentosa actually but jie wasnt feeling well. so decided to jus go cck and swim. but i ended up having a flu. cancelled all plans and stayed at h0me. planned to do some ironing later. =/

my cake for darl's 21st bdae was successful!

happy 21st bdae hun. =))

caught the teenage mutant show with keane and darl yst. kinda boring. open season was better! =X went for lunch together before heading home and darl went off after that. and i realised there are soo many nice shows coming up!

- pirates of the carribean
- the reaping
- bridge to terabithia

=))

caught the cinderella 3 just n0w. no regrets for buying it at all. thumbies up! =)
bought the shen qing mi ma VCDS tooo... =X

arrghs. gotta save 400 within 6mths. den can add on more to my capital for my investments! hohoho!

tues- meeting OTPL peeps for dinner
wed- youth exibition,keane's tuition
thurs- meeting auddie for dinner in town. (any sistas interested?) jiamin's jie class
fri-mummy and daddy are off to malaysia while i'm home! might be joining jas to polymarina for bapok night.

darns... my nose is peeling..

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2007-03-27T19:52:00.000-07:00

arrghs! got pissed by mom in the morn. crap. my day just couldnt have got any better.

darl's back since last week. =)) finally the 3 weeks ordeal is over. actually it wasnt that bad. since he called back pretty often. =X and my moods just kept getting better! tonnes of cheesy pampering~ door step delivery breakfast and of cos the many many cosy moments! =))

cruise is ok. Capt Fred kept putting me in the limelight. -.-! why do i simply sense my life in in yr3 is sooo not gonna be quiet anymore? arrghs. thank god he din teach me for my 1st sem. phews~but now that alfian screwed his chance with Capt Fred, i've got one less opponent.=X

got some buys from cruise!
*-Dior perfume! =))
*-shawls
*-seashells bracelet!

and tonnes of magaritas on board plus $50 winnings from the jackpot. l0ls.

ending work this week! weeees! =D got time for swimming,jogging and of cos baking! l0ls. my 2 batches of cake was a flop. its either too soft or not enough sugar! oh wells~

gnaws. got housework to do n0w. crap!

catch u gurls on the 13th then! loves! =)

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2007-03-08T07:50:00.000-08:00

had a great evening with daddy and mummy today. =) attended the AMC talk and i'm soooo hoping SMA will quickly launched the program sooon! save my travelling time then! =)) went to an italian restaurant for dinner and i've got a good serving of my cheesy addiction today! =D

can't wait for work to end soon by march! can get to swim and of cos spend more time with him.

i thought i could hold on. but they just flow within just a short minute. i've got to be strong. its a long way ahead still. i can't be forever tearing could i? nothing could have felt more right just to go through all with you. =) i din get to see the orion belt of stars last night. but its shinning as brightly as it is in my heart. as bright as it is on that night when u left.. and it will always be.

on the brighter note! i'm gonna learn baking from his mom on sat! =D

hope i can get to hug the teddy too..i miss him..

happy thots happy thots!

erms! yes i've got a good time with my sistas last night! hahas. learnt the art of mahjong! =)) thanks for the cosy moments sweets.

my mind's swirling now. fark.

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2007-03-06T06:35:00.000-08:00

fark. mummy just had to drop the bomb on me. now i'm broke. like thanks?
bought a new specs today and after when we left the shop she told me 50-50 for it. and i'm dumbfounded. arrghs!

cruise payment is tomorrow i think. pretty please cash my cheque soon! =( if darl is to find out by this wkend of what i've spent. i'm sooo SCREWED! arrghs!maybe i shld work for 6 days next wk! IF NOT I'M DOOM when he realise i cant save anything next month! think i gotta sign for expenses on cruise~and not tooo much i hope! =( cant touch my tuition payment if not i've got nothing to pay for april's insurance!

fark fark. no spending for april tooooo!

chill chill!
going on wed with sistas for drinking! glad we met for updates session yst with the gurls =)) thanks for sending me home too! =D -hugs-

no dinner for the whole week! wed shall be my last spending day -.-

pretty please don let him call back on weekends? erms... maybe i shld have more money by then? =/

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2007-02-25T03:57:00.000-08:00

weees! one more week for CNY gatherings which meant after that there will be no more mass spring cleaning over at my place! =P
alrights! thots of the lazy me! =)

packed since the first day of the lunar new year. gnaws! been having tonnes of house visitings and all. but this year is the best year of CNY for me i suppose.

-*darl went over to grandma's place for lunch and he got ang paos from grandma, joe ma and my parents! hehs. keane was a bit afraid of him at first. l0ls. guess hun's height kinda startled him a little. =P

-*hun's family came over yesterday and the evening was just peerrrfffeeeccct! =))

-*my 1st steamboat with hun today!

-*my ang paos collection is considered one of the most since 3 years ago! LOLS!

-* my room is sparkling clean once again! [thanks to spring cleaning]

-* last but not least, CNY goodies! LOLS!

kinda lazy to update! soo...let the pictures speak a thousand words! =))

chu qi

chu san! =)

=))

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2007-02-14T09:17:00.000-08:00

lazy to update the details! so here is the pics diary =)

having dinner by the beach at changi village. =)) love the countless stars above us!

a toast to baby! =))

soup for starters

baby's main course

sinful indulgence for desserts!

and hun sure had me startled when the bell rang in the afternoon! a deliveryman came with these flowers!

i love this pic the most! 13 roses! for 13mths! and most importantly.... i had my white roses again! =D

2006 roses =))

the sea breeze was great today! had these dinner by the beach of changi village. dinner was good and ambience was really nice. enjoyed the oldies sang by this live band with darl and of cos the enchanting night scenery of the night. =) darl taught me how to identify the orion belt of stars. and a pity it is that we din get to see the north star today. but most of all.. this is the most perfect dinner ever. =))

this is how it looks! when its styled of cos. but i'm kinda lazy to do it these days now. =X

the long wait is finally over and u've no idea how i felt so secured again to be in your arms. thank you for the best v.day ever hun. loves =))

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2007-02-12T07:14:00.000-08:00

LOLS! i'm kinda damn lazy to upload it. but i realise to have my hair curled up in a super obvious way requires WAX! and i totally had a bad experience the last time round when i tried doing it! =X i'll upload SOON okays. heeees.

went to visit mrs teo today! had a nice chat with her along with babe. =) good old days i must say. cant believe i practically grew up there through my secondary school years. she's still the same as ever. chirpy. warm and hilarious! =)

went school for marketing as well. capt chatur claimed i wasnt in the full strength recently which i TOTALLY AGREE! oh wells. but at least alrdy 79 students had our course as their FIRST choice and i managed to persuade 1 single digit aggregate gurl to join DMTM and some gurls too! =D

capt fredrick approached me today to actually represent DMTM in the course and careers talk! =D cant wait to share this good piece of news with baby =)) and he practically sat down and asked me nicely and remembered my name! i mean its capt fedrick! he's like the most influential lecturer and his name in maritime is like damn impressive since he wrote law reference books for the courts of singapore! i used to remember how he had a hard time remembering people's name and now he did for mine. i guess my 2 years in marketing paid off! =)) Capt.F claimed my proj for law got an A tooo!

priscilla taught me how to write a CV too! she wants me to practise my writing for it and she'll edit it for me! damns. i'm sure lucky! =D really cant wait to share it with hun! never in my whole dreams thot i could even be friends with her! =))

went over to my grandparents place and i jus realised i haven got any shoes to wear CNY yet! LOLS. heck. to hell with CNY and all arms to the talks! gnaws! i cant wait to tell darl yet! he'll be sooo impressed and proud of me right diary? =) at least mummy is super happy and daddy is feeling super proud!

=)) all smiles today! esp when my maple syrup came in earlier than expected!

i'm missing you tonnes. can you please be back sooon. =((

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2007-02-10T08:14:00.000-08:00

yawns. i'm deprived of sleep. wanted to do ibanking. darns the network is not working apparently till 1am! and my new blusher broke. sheesh~

had a looong day at work yesterday. 12.30 till 10.30pm! 10 whole hours.but time pass exceptionally fast. rushed home so that i can get the last train with vane to town to accompany gerx and cheer that little lady up. =)) had supper at makan sutra and sat around esplanade till 2.30 before cabbing to babe place! was practically tapped out in the cab. reached.cleansed and knock out till the extent of not being woken up by 2 alarms. l0ls. dearie babe had to wake me up! -.-

went school for JAE marketing and really had a good and nice chat with capt manu,rosli and salleh. realise he aint that fierce as he turn outta be and most importantly he advised me about my further studies. hmms. why does NTU has to only produce their grads this year! gnaws!!
and yes! gotta start on my job research soon like what capt manu says before i choose my specialisation! =))

going on MEL camp soon onboard cruise again! hehs. school subsidised rates! LOLS! wanted to go on the vietnam trip on board this ancient vsl with Capt FF and the other students. but its $400+ like after subsidising. blahs. if only i din join the MEL camp i would have went! cant afford to spend $600+ on this excluding all the other spending expenses! =(( think it'll add up to more than a K even!

blahs anyways went home did a nice soothing face mask before going to yishun again for CIP. had fun no doubt but am still adapting to the cold stares! =/
daddy and mummy took me out to a sumptous supper after that! LOLS. think i gonna put on weight like no one's business!

heading to jiayi's bday party tomorrow!

darl coming back on wed! =)) heading off to brunei after 1st tho and will only be back on the 24th! =( blahs. but i'll be heading to phuket then and busy working so i'll not think sooo much? =X

i HAVEN done any spring cleaning yet! and i've got marketing for 2 full days ahead till wed when i'm heading out with him! =X

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2007-02-04T09:04:00.000-08:00

i've got a new hair style today! yes! but its darn ex! $120+ for the whole thing. will pose it up for u gurls to get shock cos its NO LONGER straight AT ALL and erms my fringe is like short to the obvious and yes! no perming at all. =)

dinnoe Jean Yip charge damn ex. caution: if u wanna go there for hair treatment or something please ask them how much isiz first! i paid a hefty prize jus for the treatment!
blahs but what the hell i love it! though if i wanna go out next time with a proper nice image i need 30 mins to style my hair! -.-

i'm working now in case some gurls are not aware of. hehs. at this tuition centre doing simple admin work. earning some cash at least altho i promised darl i wont spend till 2mths later~
arrghs! but i jus saw an ELF spree again! since that time my bronzer powder broke before it was even delivered to me! =(

sighs! i overspent this month la! fancy die die also wanna be eligible for the body shop star loyalty that i spent soo much. sighs. thank g0d darl helped me out in the end and my ELF sprees too and yes! i managed to get my star loyalty in d end but not next year i suppose since i alrdy cant shop for 2 mths PLUS i promise to spend lesser in body shop next year. =(( my bank acct haven been soo pathetic for ages! damns~

BUT nevertheless! i've got 3 new bras today! l0ls~

went out with hun the whole of yst! =)) went over his place in d noon and watched the lit' man with his parents before heading to town to celebrate andi's 27th bday! =) was rushing like hell before that to get his gift with hun. imagine pacing ard all sports shop! l0ls! had a thai express treat from him along with josh and isabella and headed to the balcony at heeren for drinks. most of the time the guys were engrossed in the soccer game while isabella and i just chilling~ but eventually during the last 10 mins i got hooked on too! =X but the cosmo was great there and yes i love darl's ice jelly drink cos its damn concentrated with alcohol~ =P
love the ambience there esp if u can get the bed there which can squeeze abt 8 with much room still! =D lets go there sometime when we can alrighty?

yawns! i'm tired n0w but sooo happy dat i can still catch up with yinn! ladies where have u been to?! exams exams exams! =) jia u!

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2007-01-16T22:08:00.001-08:00

gurls if you can go and d/l the song by Akon - I wanna love you.

i've got the uncensored version. hahs. so don't think you gurls will like it!

EXAMS ARE OVER! yes xianie dear! and here i am blogging again. can't believe year 2 just flew by like that. and imagine i'll graduate a year plus later. hahs. why do secondary school years seem to be creeping by but poly years seems to be flying by!

got a few new buys recently. ELF buys are in S'pore! waiting for the seller to send to ms kok now while i'm waiting for new maple syrup spree reply and and my an0ther seller to send me my bag and earrings! oh! and my 2nd round of ELF is arriving S'pore soon too! gees! =D

promise darl i will stop shopping for a month but let me buy these things first alright let me get my birks are like being worn every single day! yes every SINGLE day. i cant seems to find aniting nice to got with it!

and so i'll stop till i got my
*-havaianas
*-a pair of heels
*-facial stuff!

=)) yes! three weeks of ordeal sure do pay off with these buys!

oh yes! i'm doing threading soon! =D

Forever 21 got spree now la. but but but.... aiyahs! est if u want prompt me kaes. cos both the F21 and the long long off shoulder look EQUALLY nice!

blahs blahs! i need a job too! =(

0kie! end of exams. start of enjoyment! =))

Vday is coming soon too! but i'll be all alone cos darl cant book out on consecutive weeks. but oh well... he made up full today for not being able to spend our anni with me since he cant even bring his phone into camp now =)
so i'll not be able to talk to him for a 6 days! =(

i'm waiting for nxt week and see how he's gonna make up to me for Vday! l0ls! =))

and i passed my boating licence!! =D

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2007-01-14T02:54:00.000-08:00

Just went to watch blood diamonds with my parents and darl. the movie is great no doubt. sent a super strong message across but there is too much killings and violence. and d scene where the brain wash the kiddos to be carrying guns and killing tonnes of people thinking they were some kinda death god is really heart aching.

yes. diamonds may look all shiny and nice... but they definitely cost many families and lives to scarificed their love ones. imagine the 200,000 military kiddos are trained to kill just for the sake of diamonds. amist of all...in fact i suppose less than 5% of them know how does one pathetic carat even looks like. watch it gurls...you'll realise these shiny stones that you think is all a fairy tale in fact is...has an invisible blood shed over it.

LOLS! before the movie started earlier on. darl,me and daddy were like having a pool match la! and yes! even tho i lost since they were pros but the challenging atmosphere is super fun! =D

gnaws! i'm bloated with cheese now! yes! darl just statisfied my cheese cravings today with tonnes of cheese! tummy is sticking out now! but i need that brain power for the upcoming marathon!

yippes! my ELF buys are coming! tralalalalas~~

i die die also must complete my GEMs revision & my 15 articles by today!

=))

thanks for the lovely day hun.

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2007-01-10T02:50:00.000-08:00

gosh! i'm absolutely in love with Jesse McCartney's - Just so you know. =)

exams's on friday and i've got one more chapt to cover!

oh wells. i thot i should give my blog some life now since est revived it for me! yes! apparently the amateur blogger went to delete some link halfway when i was trying to remove the pass thingy since xianie claims she cant view my blog. XIANIE! see how nice i am! =P

my life for last week was fun. had CCF and i fought a long battle with my sore throat. yes till now i'm still am. but i'm glad i managed to persuade a few students to join my course! hope the response is as great as last year. =)

went out with babe for a long night last week! finally had thai express after super long! bought a pair of jeans and top at marina square too. U2 sale is madness! went to watch the last dance. and i'm not sure if its our chi thats cann0t make it or isiz the plot is too complicated cos i don understand at all. =/ but the chats by the esplanade bay is nice. counted the stars and took plenty of pics too. hahas. its been a long time since i went back there n0w. =))

darl is spoiling me rotten. =)) he bought me and egg and cheese breakfast when i was sick last week. hiaks!

he's gonna go for some swamp area today for some training. hope he's coping fine. =)

exams are gonna last till the end of jan. -sighs-

YKK is leaving! but he's really nice to give us the outlook of the industry in few years time. really appreciate his teachings and all the guidance. =))

last lap to go for year two now!

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2007-01-03T00:13:00.000-08:00

happy new year my dearest sistas! althogh i'm not there with you all when you gurls are looking at the fireworks but i'm looking at the same fireworks with you all! =D

new year meant new memories are waiting to be engraved! sweet & fun ones in fact! -winks- may this 2007 year be a better year for all! =)

i guess i could never start a year better than i did this year. being in his arms while the fireworks sparkled up above. =)

thanks for the lovely dinner,seeing the fireworks with me as promised and most of all being there with me for this whole one year. happy anni hun. =)

exams are nearing soon. yes once again. cant believe my break flew by like this. the hectic life is nearing soon. darl being in his new camp and going to brunei soon for 2 months while my exam marathon is gonna last all the way till CNY. but oh well... lets work hard together hun. -hugs-

random entry. blahs. =)

oh and i baked a successful batch of cookies! =D

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2006-12-19T08:34:00.001-08:00

guess i'm having some blues in the morning.

est and ting! erased whatever i've told you! just some gibberish of mine.

guess i need to take my mind off some things & dats why i said that. i'm sorry

i've been thinking a lot lately. cant believe the tears fell at the wrong time. but somehow despite making no promises, the reassurance seems to calm the emotional storms brewing inside me. years may be easy to be expressed verbally. but for actions, how often will one succumb to lose and eventually all promises are just part of a fairytale meant for two in love but not after the spilt. and yes. i don deny how hurt i was when you said that.
but neverthless thank you for letting me learn how to cherish the present for it is and not daring to think too way ahead. sometimes i'm wondering, would my thots wonder too far & scare you away?
the tears have been falling for two nights since you said it. & still i'm trying to get over it once again. i never knew crying in front of you could make you feel so unfeeling. but thanks again for the reassurance...at least the storm has subside now but not too far away i guess since somehow in d very near future it'll be brought up again..
but still i need you to know how much i love you..david martin

alrights. enough of soap operas! the jolly seasons is here. =)

i've got a weak spot for shopping! yes! and i bought a dress frm fond hugs today! and my 3 for ten buys! gnaws.
i dont want to show the soap operas today. all let's out now. =) thanks dear diary

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2006-12-19T08:34:00.000-08:00

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2006-12-15T06:31:00.000-08:00

i hope i'm just over-sensitive. its like a week of quarrels. am i thinking too much?

Financial is left with the commenting part now. its half done now. =) thanks to wyiteck's advices and my group members promptness. wouldnt know what to do without them.

hols is finally here. but why am i not even excited about it. oh yea. how can i? financial is like the first week when sch reopens. gems & stats lab exam is on d 2nd week. law proj is due on d first week of Jan. stats theory is on the 2nd week too. f**k i really need a rest.

i miss walking soaking in d water. i miss the beach. i miss the starries night. i miss the cosy laze around. i need a swim. i miss cycling by the beach.

i skipped school this morn. wasnt feeling well in d morn.

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2006-12-06T07:38:00.000-08:00

arrghs! i'm too lazy to do anything n0w. hahaha practically switching off after my gems exam today =X

but oh well at least got some progress on law. =) n0w its just choosing the right case studies. thank god i've got great and fun group members.

xmas is coming! yayness! but i wont be in singapore. kinda contridicting huh? but i guess its the outings with my gurls thats perking me up! =)) cant wait for the upcoming xmas outing! i can already forsee the massive picture taking sessions and the how our laughters and smiles are gonna wrapped up the whole evening nicely. and yes! i'm so gonna be the FIRST ONE to doze off again since i'm certified a PIG now! so i shall live up to my name!

argrhs! the crs is nagging inside my head n0w! think i'll look for it after this

last evening was great. darl accompanied for dinner and we managed to spend some time together after like 5 days. i l0ve cosy evenings =))

tomorrow will be chionging law and fri hun andi will be attending his friend's bday party. and sat and sun will be burnt too!

i saw the guys signing up for holiday jobs today. and i wanted too! but i just don feel confident enough that i will be studying enough for financial management since its like in d 1st week when school reopen plus all the projects.

blahs. sorry for the random entry. =)

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2006-11-27T05:13:00.000-08:00

blahs. ign0re my previous entry. i guess i was simply overwhelmed by the idea of more to my footwear collection. yes! no new buys! CONTROL! =(

xmas is around the corner! erms in about 28 days! and daddy's bday is about 4 days time while g0dma's is just a day after.

hmmms 3 years seems to pass so fast. that day at the station i thot i saw her. hahs. there was this lady that really look like her and i got stunned for a moment. oh well.. think i'll drop by the church to pray her sometime soon.

darl and i found a super nice prata shop! hohoho! i l0ve the amount of cheese inside! cheese and mushrooms prata with my all time fave milo dinosaur! =)) l0ve the treats for dinner and the sweet cozy times to end my week!

went to casino royale with his parents too. hmmms. i'm having some hard time comprehending some parts tho. hahs. but overall i l0ve the twist of the movie! =) thumbies!

yawns. i'm waiting for him to finish his guard duty at 11! guess he must super tired tho. =/

its raining EVERY SINGLE DAY N0W! making me feel sleepy! and the best part is i can forsee myself being super upset tomorrow since i'm getting back YKK's paper tomorrow i suppose. h0hs! bless me~

i love M&Ms topped on ice-cream! i l0ve the daytona competiting times! i cant seem to get enough of the pampering me with cheese like the yummy lagsana, pasta and prata! i l0ve the watching movie on sofas! i l0ve the walking sim lim endless and getting bewildered by the tonnes of stuff there! i l0ve long bus rides and i've got a cosy shoulders to doze off on! i l0ve those times by the sea & star gaze while having endless chats. i feel super pampered as how you will always seems to be bear with all my exploded temper tantrums and you will always have a way to make me feel so much cheered up and loved and going to sleep with a smile. how u always got me laughing in the end when i got flustered when our parents have some funny ideas up in their head! i l0ve the sweet messages! i l0ve the sweet moments! and last of all... i could never getting tired loving you david martin! =))

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2006-11-23T21:37:00.000-08:00

arrghs! i want the new series of papillio!

sighs! so suuppper nice right! grrr!!

& guess what! mummy DON ALLOW ME TO BUY! freak! i din even have to pay for the shipment cos hayle got more that 200+! bet it would have cost a bomb soon since they are increasing the prices soon! =((

arrghs! my mood is a gonna n0w lahs. first is my freaking stats paper! and n0w this. sheeesh!

i want i want!! =(

and the stupid thing is i owe me mom freaking 50 bucks~

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2006-11-20T08:34:00.000-08:00

blahs. a super eventful night. =/

hey est be strong alright. all of us are behind you. =) hang in there. this torment will pass soon. the pain will be washed away before you know it. its not the end of the world yet.

loves from xianie,ting,aud,yinn and mie! =)

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2006-11-16T07:58:00.000-08:00

last paper tomorrow. finally~

sighs. don think i'll be getting any sleep. not in the mood to study at all.. hate to be caught in situation like this and knowing i cant do anything about it. sighs. how how how? no one is at fault i know. arrghs!

come on! i need to get into a freaking studying mood!

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2006-11-12T23:23:00.000-08:00

LAW is a killer! i'm worried abt the true and false! the MCQ and the essay! damns damns damns. insurance wise i'm only worried about the essay

gonna go study on e-comm sooon! graph plotting and all! blahs!

bought a new mascara today! finally settled on it! somehow it was hanging on my head which one i should i get since like donno when. but i took the 2nd choice eventually~
& i finally settled on the perfume i want!

arrghs! i walked one round around d mall jus now. hoping to motivate myself since i'm kinda disappointed in law today. it did help a little now. four more papers to go!!

friday will be brain-taxing morning but i'll enjoy myself to the max after that! since the nxt paper is on the next fri!

jia us jia us!!

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2006-11-06T10:59:00.000-08:00

YAYS! i've got 39 out of 40 for my law e-learning! 10% of semester grading i secured! think i did super lotsa multiple attempts till the system almost cocked up already! blahs. took a long way to get such gradings. but who cares? my gradings matter! cos the As pressure is super strong this time =/

mummy is not asleep! while i jus did finish my e-learning and some minor housework. the whole family seem to be rushing for time! i'm rushing for my studying while coping with assignments while mummy is rushing all housework cos she's leaving the country with dad soon in a few days time. well daddy is still busy as usual with work~

rush rush~

i'm like almost half-done for my law. arrghs! still super lotsa to cover! thank g0d i think i'm only left with Capt Anil's e-learning assignments!
=/

okie i need to get off to sleep now! time check: 3am exactly on a tues morning! and i can sense the sign which i drew this morning glaring at me now. l0ls.

i actually drew a sign stating
*-NO MSN
*-NO BLOGGING/SURFING [erms i jus wanna record this 39/40 significant period! =X]
*-USAGE OF COM FOR PURELY E-LEARNING PURPOSE

its suppose to be valid till exams are over tho. hehs. but i actually i broke the all three. i actually went online and ask capt koo for help regarding the law e-learning and i sneaked a peek and tagged at all my sistas' blog! -faints-

mummy is having some mind boggling headache now. she jus doesnt feel safe of letting me stay at home while she is away. she keep thinking that i wont wake up in time for exams!

ohhhh! quite slack studying day today since i only covered 3 quads of law and e-learning! arrghs! more studying tomorrow!!

saturday is coming!! tralalalas~

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2006-11-05T04:58:00.000-08:00

-guilty pleas-

i've been having super sinful DINNERS since thurs!
i've bought a pair of new shoes and hair bands!

money money where art thou? =/

great! now i'm on the broke status! thank god for the study break! meaning i can save up a wk's allowance! just the tot of it. how the hell am i gonna go out with vane babe and my sistas to the current most happening [as in everyone is going there except me lahs. grr~] place now, VIVO when i'm broke! -shake head-

CALLING OUT TO ALL SHERMAIN LIM's BABES AND SISTAS!
there's a current donation drive going to aid yours truly in her pathetic financial state! anyone KIND enought to do that?! LOLS

watched a movie in darl's place in the late morning along with his mom. was watching hot chicks. super nice show! =) u can really laugh your heart out. and i brought many many shows back with me too! =X and darl was super mean lahs. he actually told his mom to get me this coffee liquor and in the end finished up himself cos he's afraid i will be drunk. had a nice lunch with his parents and gosh siam kitchen's mango salad and pineapple rice deserved thumbies up! =)

went for religious class and after that stayed back to help mummy finish up her cleaning. was dreading the idea of having to take the train back since dad drove the car to malaysia for some religion event. BUT thank god. mummy was too tired too in addition to the fact we're carrying super lotsa of things back so we took a cab back! was simply too tired then that i rested my eyes in the cab. =P

my birkis are here! gorgeous pair! love it =)

i almost influenced my mom to get a pair too. almost~

intending to finish my online assignments by tues cum covering at leats 1 module!

drats~ i jus dread insurance,financial management & law!

=)) darl is happy today! =))

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2006-11-01T00:53:00.000-08:00

finally gems is over! arrghs! but i still can understand why i chose the wrong scientist name! one qn off! =(( my hopes of getting A for this paper is pretty high. hope i wont be disappointed.

feeling the tingling happiness today! darl actually messaged me through the morning till noon! =D altho i know that i'm distracting him super much from his work! =X and i bought a pair of jeans today! erms gonna discard some old jeans soon.. sighs~ since yours truly put on a lot lahs. i almost bought a pair of shorts too! but they din have my size! hahs.

most lecturers are super nice this time. Capt Amir as usual, giving us super lotsa tips and my most fearful sub marine insurance has hope! anthony is being exceptionally nice to give us super lotsa tips! hurrays!

BUT there is still this most fearful sub! FINANCIAL MANAGEMENT. gosh. i'm so gonna die for the commenting part. =/

and due to that thing coming recently, i'm like gorging food for no reason. i managed to stay off weekday dinners for d past few weeks. but since last weekend i'm constantly craving for speg and rice! ARRRGH! CARBO INTAKES! & i get super tired easily too! so exercising is off! est!! lets go swimming on fri alrights! take some fats off me! =((

i cant wait for my buys to come soooon! tralalalalalas~

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2006-10-26T06:06:00.000-07:00

hey diary. =)

its one of the emo night today. something that i haven been feeling for pretty long. hahahas. i just felt the pain for someone. i just hope at the end of the day, beating around the bush after this super long time, they'll get back to where they are.
just listening to their fave songs now just really amazes me how fate had manipulate their lifes. hope all will be well in the end. =)

darl is having his jump today. finally for him i guess. hope he's safe and alright.

bought a few buys from body shop today. the new jasmine perfume,concealer, the shaperner and the eye cream. hmms i've got a new shower gel as free gift too. =)

i actually slept in class today. first time since school reopen. guess i burn too much of the midnight oil. but felt super proud after my completing my esssays. hehs. so i guess its worth it cos its a 2 good essays!

gotta start mugging for my gems! ICA 1 is next week!

i did a little spring cleaning for my glass shelf today since i added one more to my collection.

took some pics while mummy was helping me wipe the big glass mirrors.

she claimed i din did a good job! grrrs. so i asked her to do an example while snap pics! l0ls.

some great tester who thinks he wanna rate my perfume!

tada!! sparkling clean! =)

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2006-10-23T21:12:00.000-07:00

yes! i studied quite a bit recently! did finished my tutorials due this week except for my CRS compos! grrrs~ i cant seem to come up with reasonable policies to encourage birth rates & its due on thurs!

yawns. school's been pretty eventful with the babes. great times spent no doubt. babes united yeas! =D

erms okie. i know i look super round here. hahahas. =X

grrs... darl don seem to appreciate my birkis. such turn off~ tralalas but i don care i cant wait for it to come 2 weeks later! and my necklace too! yinn! when isiz coming anyways? =))

i might be making a trip to taiwan with my parents for some kinda funeral after exams. there goes my hopes of earning more money! =/

yawns. sorry if my entry is pretty random. guess my brain cells are almost all dead and all thats left inside is the law i mugged during this morning!

okie. gotta go out n0w. cia0s-*

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2006-10-21T03:50:00.000-07:00

i guess i'm on a movie marathon or something. watched two movies in a row!

Rob-B-Hood yst with babe vane, justin & Shao Min. Super funny! Sistas! worth watching! 9 outta 10! =D
Death Note with Est,Ting & Xianie.
=))
Mistress of Spices with hun. super nice & romantic. tho daddy claimed that the movie is like on budget or sth cos it kept revolving around the shop -.-

sighs~ gonna mug and complete my tutorials later. cant slack anymore since i did too much in this week! hmmms was thinking of camping in moberly block and study this week. =/

i cant wait for my buys to come!

okie lahs. i spent from my quite a bit 0f my salary from coaching keane. hees =X
tralalalaalas~ babe sokyin says she's gonna include me in her online shopping sprees once my ban is over which is wed!! hohohoho!

KL is trip is cancelled. don wish to talk about it too much~ sighs =/

i feel like a princess these two days darl! thanks~ =)
picking me up from school for lunch. sending me to class waited for me to end and accompanying me bugis! & giving in to watch mistress of spices today!
lov you hun! -hugs-!

okie okie! off to study!

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2006-10-17T01:18:00.000-07:00

the haze seems to be a killer to me.

sighs~ down with two days of MC.

thank g0d lesson's today are pretty light. if not think i will even crawl to school!

babe was super sweet to accompany last evening! she claimed its a patient visiting kinda thing & she brought the patient harum manis! yums~ l0ls. had super l0tsa of fun scrolling through hotels and trying to find the webby for kinda transport with her last night! the excitement is building in me already! =D imagine 3 days of shopping, eating, spa and massages! woooooo~

-pondering- train or coach?

i'm beginning to like Capt Anil and Capt Ali! basically all my LIS lecturers are pretty nice! Capt Anil, Capt Ali, Capt Rosli, Capt Sarwar & Capt Mani!! imagine i found out last noon that Capt Anil had a sense of humour too! l0ls. basically both of us are the victims of the haze and imagine me battling with my runny nose and cough while he is having problems with his nose. & guess what we're still crapping! Capt Ali was super nice to not blabber out my MSN chattings in class too! l0ls. but hey! i catch the lesson kaes! =)

went to see doc chee today. & guess what! bet darl muz be super impressed with me. i took a cab to doc chee's clinic but i came back on train despite mummy's paying me for my cabby fare! =))

-prouds-

just realise even if the shopping ban is lifted fr0m nxt week onwards i cant shop! bcos i muz save money for KL! siiggghhhs! please please let me see a couple of VNC shops, Leno, MNG sales again, Fila sales again & grab some really good buys! -prays-

i guess die die tomorrow i will be going school! GEMs Exams are due soon! thank god joe ma postpone the tuition nxt week! so more rest tml! =))

doubt darl can do his jump today since the PSI is about 100 now. can he? =/

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2006-10-14T03:23:00.000-07:00

phews! finally my blog is back in action again!

=)

school has been going at a super fast paced! tutorials and countless of lecturers' saying "i'll go through the main topics and all you have to do is to read up on examples." & guess what we MIGHT be supposed to be listing down these examples in our scripts. -.- oh well the following week after next week i must be glued to the chair for my exams preparations!

week's been hectic but at least i've been meeting up with many people. =)

oh yea! i persuaded daddy to get the Sylphy! =) collecting the car on the 15 nov! misty lavender. car's my choice and the colour too! hohoho! but mummy have been trying pretty hard too to get me to get my licence asap. hahs!

pics of the new Sylphy!

super nice right~!

tempting tempting! but jus the tot of me paying for my own petrol~ not worth it ehs? cum all the minor minor charges~ hmmms. not worth!

the haze is like coming on and off! sheesh! darl couldnt get to do his jump then!

i'm getting pretty lazy now. yawns. shall update some time!

=)

thanks for being there for me during my darkest moments -hugs hun-

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2006-10-04T09:18:00.000-07:00

yawns.

my 2 weeks is gonna fly by nobody's business. felt super sorry that i cant join you gurls this week or next week. my sincere apologies. gonna spend more time with mummy before she throw her tantrums again. sighs~ what do you expect from woman! -shakes-

well 2 days of each week is gonna be occupied by keane as his exams is coming up! joe ma is already struggling with her studies and thats the least i could do i suppose? hmms~but at least he pays attention! so its not that mind boggling issue! exams are coming up! yes! in less than a months time! sheesh! pracs for stats is like 3 weeks from now. -faints-

arrghs! so many things to do but so little time! tutorials to rush, notes to read up on because all d lecturers are like going at super fast speed! esp Capt Yeow & Capt Fedrick!

oh well at least i understand!

=)

guess life without club is so much better. my bonds with my classmates are better as we get to hang out after school and its soo nice to sit in between the 4 babes. =) yeps!

ehs. babe. sorry for the gym sessions ahs. these two weeks i'm super packed. maybe after my exams or something kaes? =)

felt so sorry that i keep turning wyiteck & hayloh down for training sessions! but at least i get to eat with my aunties today! =))

kaes kaes. my brain is dead now. i'll update soon~

cia0s-*

98

2006-09-26T07:42:00.000-07:00

yawns.

darl went to rest already. he had a super long day today. hope his knees are alright tho. =/

school's alright i guess. nothing much. trying to keep away anything that do with club. but all full geared for marketing! 4 more points to go for an A grade! =) darl's right i've got one an a half year to go! sheesh now i'm really pressured to get my PPCDL licence. FNC, Capt Chatur & Mummy! -.-

nvms. she's paying for it anyway =P

so far d modules are pretty alright. not too boring. not too fun either. cos its already super heavy to digest for the first 2 days! & d first week haven pass yet -.-

guess the peaks of the week is swimming with ting, tomorrow's cycling trip with my gurls & dinner with colleagues! =) good enough~

miss d stone table times tho. only had man & taman with me there today...=/

guess the best thing to look forward dis wk is seeing darl on friday! yays =))

but i had fun with my classmates too. stupid topics but brought many many laughters too!

new startt! new mindset!! =)

97

2006-09-21T22:59:00.000-07:00

yawns.

technical dept is so quiet now. thank god i'm not here =X

scanning some docs for aloy now. -.- some stupid cock ups in Singtel in the morning and make me running like a mad chicken trying to sort things out! sighs~ but at least its almost cleared now. almost! not done yet~ its suppose to be my last day! for slacking! not running around! l0ls.

hmmms. gave my cakes to the Operations Dept, Accounts & my own inclusive of the IT people. Honestly i don feel as nostalgic as what i thot i will be. maybe its because i know i wont lose touch with them soon! =) gave KC & Douglas cakes too. Douglas told me to come back to them soon so they can put me in Chartering. Hahahahas!

i've got many many prezzies for my last day too!
Capt Low, Grace,Irene & Yee Aung got me something! Hahahas. all are damn unexpected! but still i l0ve it! =)

Capt Low sent an e-mail to me too!

erms jus realise its too small to be read =X

Hi Shermin,
Understand today is your last day.
I wud like to wish u all the best in your studies.
Wished u had opportunity to try Operations.
But anyway I think u will be very successful with your good character and ability.
You are such a nice person to talk to.
Everyone seem to like you.
Good luck to you...
Rgds
Capt Low

hahahas. cant believe he's hitting his sixty soon & he always spelled my name wrongly!

hmmms. last day! no mroe running down the stairs anymore where aunties will scold me!
no more lunch breaks anymore where accs will offer me side dishes.
no more lunch with my beloved khakis & all the laughter!

well but at least i can go harwin house and can have shopping trips with aunty sayang,aunty yuti,aunty sotong & bee tin!

my lunch khakis and i are planning to go KL to visit Capt Koo & his family!! =))

hopefully i can see darl tomorrow =))

96

2006-09-21T08:39:00.000-07:00

<>yawns. tired but fun night.

=)

once again the gurls had a surprise for me for my 18th birthday! except that they had a hard time tricking me. =P sheesh i still donno wad to do with the left over ice-cream cake! but really thanks for the surprise gurls! =) i l0ve u all more than ever! actually is always the same just that i din voice out thats all =P

thank u xianie for being so sweet. i know you're super tired you're still a great sport to be hanging around and being so fun-l0ving! i l0ve u!

thank u ting for being so smiley today when i know u're really feeling not well but nevertheless still cheer me up many many! i l0ve u!

thank u aud for taking your precious study time to be with me today to celebrate! i l0ve u!

thank u est for being so high today laughing & laughing which cheers me up many many when i'm about to expose the surprise! i l0ve u!

thank u yinn for laughing so happily when i'm sending u off jus now! i really l0ve that smile of urs! i l0ve u!

=)

last day of work tomorrow! finally! school days are coming soon! & my dearest peeps out there wont see me dressing like an aunty anymore!! hiaks. no more betty's food! no more waking up early! erms. i know three out of 5 days my school starts at 8 but at least i've got two days to slack! hiaks

my time table is real screwed up mans~sigghhs!

but anyway

anyway just to share some pics with you gurls!

Dinner with my beloved khakis at the Project Ship Cafe!
[Left to Right: Julie,Me,Hayloh,Capt Koo,Stan [hiding], Wyi Teck & Teck Wee!]

Julie, Me & Hayley! My beloved ladies!

Round Round [Thats what they call me!!] & her super nice bday card! =)

Capt Koo, Stan, Wyi Teck & Teck Wee!

I guess without these peeps my life in OTPL will be boring! hehs!
Lovely farewell dinner! Thanks a lot guys!

now for my bday celebration today with my sistas!

the ice cream cake is melting!! =))

don we jus simply l0ve reflection pics? =P

okie & for the rest of the wacky pics don look for me! xianie has them! i guess someday i muz take my thumb and go over to her place to d/l all d pics! hahs!

-yawns

95

2006-09-20T02:11:00.000-07:00

All bills almost cleared! Great! & i've put on two more kilos this week! That makes me super unhappy! arrgh!

BUT

on the lighter note i've got many many happy stuff to blog about!!

I just simply love Doc. Chee! As promised by him my gastric is gone after the 2nd dosage! =) kept snackin today to celebrate such a joyous occasion! l0ls. twisties, coconut sweets, cheese rings & lemon biscuits! hiaks~ that explains my 2 kilo! =(

went to a super nice ambience cafe yst! its opp botanic gardens and the lights are dim dim kinda & u're surrounded by plants and flowers. wrong crowd lahs no doubt but at least i had super l0tsa fun with my lunch khakis. oh! and they gave me a super adorable card happy 18th bday card which by chance i realise its 12 bucks -.- & an anna sui make up palette kinda thing. the desserts there are superb & extremely sinful! i had d pecan pie with choc fudge! gosh! the choc fudge is steaming hot even! slurps!

babe! lets go there someday after a sinful day of shopping! & i hope we're going to the spa sooon =/

reason no. 3 to be happy abt! darl called me this noon too! when he's not supposed too! =))

reason no 4 ! i'm going out to swim with est tomorrow!! =))

reason no. 5! i'm gonna be in d shipyard in the morn to see a O.Apex! there goes my wonderful morning! =)) no work no work! na ni na ni poo poo!

reason no. 6! i've got free lunch tomorrow!

reason no. 7! i've got 2 more days left in the co. & that makes it 4 more days till i have lunch with ting!

reason no. 8! i've got to know all of auddie's mr bean's story!

reason no. 9! two more days till i get my salary!

i've got no reason ten... cos i din get to talk to yinn, xianie & babe these days =(

94

2006-09-16T09:36:00.000-07:00

i donno what's up my mind now. felt super over-sensitive now. hahs

est's blog music is keeping me company now. i dont even have any idea whats it about as in the lyrics. but at least thats what i wanted now.

had fun at vane's bday yesterday. felt really thankful that darl managed to make it despite only booking out at 8 plus. =)) catching up with bob & man too. i guess its also a night whereby godpa and i had a really nice, short tho but at least it was heart-warming enough. =)

went out with darl today to catch the devil wears prada. nice show. some enlightment~ hahs. darl felt that the gurl inside somehow resembles me. i guess it goes to show new things can amaze people. i guess no matter how much attention you get in a newly exposed stuff.. at the end of the day, you'll still be your old self cos fitting inside a shoe size thats oversized or too small will only make you walk in discomfort or causing blisters. no one can fit into a temporary model for long.

thks darl for getting me my watch =)

i donno. i really hope i'm over sensitive.. but i felt so helpless then.. but you ended up being on their side. my eyes are overly swollen these few days. fcuk

93

2006-09-13T22:56:00.000-07:00

I've got an A grade for my ITP! i bet for some of you its pretty common to get an A grade or something. but i guess for this semester, my only module, i took an extremely strong determination to fight for it.

i used to skip school and all the kinda stupid late for classes stuff. but i guess ever since working its a whole lot of different lifestyle. i've got my work to clear by a deadline and so even if i'm sick its just the half day rest or so to make sure i hit the deadline.

hmmms.

thanks ting for being with me last night. pointing out to me that i din not get a 3.1 for this sem GPA but thats actually my circumulative! =))

thanks hayley =) cheering me up last night and making me feel like i've made some kinda remarkable achievement! hehs. & scarificing your lunch time to help me burn my proj and making sure it work and all!

thanks stan! for encouraging me saying i did so much better than you then , how i could improve on my grades & how proud u felt of me =) oh! & the times when you helped me so much for my proj!

thanks la0 pa wyi teck! for reminding me my battle is not over and making me feel proud of myself too & your precious notes regarding all the tanker charter!

thanks aunty sayang and aunty yuti for your treats to reward me for my A grading!

thank u bee tin for being proud of me!

& great thanks to teck wee too.. for helping me soo much. i'm sorry abt what i've said about you earlier.

my last thanks toooo....

darl,mummy & daddy!

thank u for always barking me at me regarding my proj! sending me to work. constant naggings for me to create a fine masterpiece for my proj & how i should behave at work!

& for my dearest darl for editing my proj for me.. accompanying me to school & finding all kinda resources for me to make my proj a better one! =) l0ve u hun!

92

2006-09-13T00:13:00.000-07:00

Just sent Gene an e-mail. =) Only got to know it from Tian Hao on Monday that Gene is waiting from it when Weijian is suppose to tell me since don't know when. -.- but oh well. the mail was sent! =)

i've been doing my logbook most of the time today cum a bit of the Singtel bills. dinner with the accounts was great yesterday! had a lot of fun laughing with the aunties when they ate in disbelieve that vege food can be that tasty!! l0ls. but am really grateful for their dinner treats! hayloh was telling me yesterday she cant bear to see me go! guess i felt the same way too... my aunties' doting, the fun lunch and dinner khakis, my tea break khakis, online shopping with them & of cos discussing many many sales too! but i guess i still miss school the most! =) cant wait to lead d carefree lifestyle soon!

auntie sayang bought me choc biscuits! & i had subway lunch on her and aunty yuti too =X beetin brought me my fave red bean pastry! stan gave me ferros! yummms! guess thats my source of motivation to put on soooooo much weight!

dinner on next mon with the tech supt! his treat =P
dinner on the following day with my lunch khakis! their treat =P

most prob swimming with my gurls next thurs!

vane's 18th bday is this friday! -hugs-

-prays- please let darl have his nights out when he is at the teck whye's camp!!

my teeeny little toe hurts! =(

91

2006-09-11T23:35:00.000-07:00

i donno whether the freaking problem lies with me or him. fcuk.

if you really wanna take me as a toy to play about then you better have your freaking fill of it before i leave. ass~ i never seen a downright idiot like you. i did the telephone directory out of freaking good will for you thinking that it will be better for you to fasten your pace instead of u always borrowing from me and never once gave me back and put it properly. bastard. you come around and question me if i think you're blind or what. so be it then. i did something because i was tooo freaking free. plus your bloody whistles like calling me like a dog like that. takin my things from my desk and always ask why isiz so messy when you never return my things in the right way. grace already make it sooooo clear!! its a damn long work process how to not involve manpower? dumb! being a broker and operator once its aint that big deal alright?

now that attachment over you better stay out of my way while i'll do too. no point crossing each other paths at all. save your treat for yourself. i don ever think i'm gonna be free & get my blood boil..

thanks for your freaking A grades and chartering reading materials too.

i wonder if there's more road layout to do still? how about boy's toilet even?

thank god u're the one & only freaking bastard i cant get along with if not i dont think i can even stay longer.

90

2006-09-07T19:10:00.000-07:00

i got drenched today when i was way to work. rode daddy's bike today to work and we both got to be luo tang ji. -.- but i got all dried up now!

grrr.... my traffic reports din came in since yesterday! feel so jobless like. l0ls. i've ran out of things to do!

settled my Singtel, filing, reimbursements & all the other misc stuff are all done! sheeesh should not have rushed all of them yesterday.

-yawns-

mummy promised to bring me to the gym today! =)) babe's coming too along with mummy & me! grr... cant swim at all because i've got my menses now~ how nice! hmmmms... MAYBE we can even catch a movie after that. hiaks. ger! when is ur prelims over. after that we can have our midnight sessions! i miss baking with you gurls! jus the thot of me sitting down there and see how you two get busy and after that i've got free cookies to munch on! wahahahahas =P lets have a BAKING SESSION soon! -hugs!

darl manage to get to signals & not the leader course after all! =D hahas. pretty soon he'll be flying in the sky with his "umbrella" l0ls!!

edited/

my reports came in! not so boring after all today at work. oh yah! just realise its gonna be the last day of my attachment! =))

NO MORE SAT WORKING DAYS
NO MORE LOG BOOK ENTRIES

erms... in fact i've still got lotsa entries to do!! =X
will get it done by this sunday since my sat is sooo packed! =X

sat:
darl's POP in the morning & award presentation in the noon
my daddy's side gathering~

yawns.

sleeeepppyy dayyyy!

89

2006-09-06T22:46:00.000-07:00

aunty yuti and aunty sayang bought me a pair of hand made earrings =)) they couldnt wait till my last day to give it to me! wahahahass! my classic sayang aunties =)

i kept sending e-mails out today. even harwin noted that. blahs. giro application & one capt lost the co.'s handphone is really enough to make me a busy bumble bee. but oh well at least i got time to do the leave forms filing n0w. if not i don see myself having the time to next week. amazingly the reports didnt came in the whole morning! so i managed to clear all the Singtel cock ups fast. =) robin & ruth were nice enough to help me speed up by giving me my prompt replies! -phews- guess Singtel aint that screwed after all.

auditors from Chevrons came in today. & last minute stan wanted me to compile the list of staff that joined our co this year! initially i thought looking through the leave records which had the dates they join was tough enough. then Grace showed me another file which included staff joining us in 2006 and leaving in the same year as well... but in order to do that i have to fish each e-mails out one by one. thank god i managed to finish it 20 mins time. -.-

audits used to be soo fun. but why am i loathing it now? =/ i guess becos its all coming up in the mist of me clearing my work.

darl's also in some kinda problems now. hopefully he can pass on his test and get his air borne badge first before the 2 commandos and navy fight over him. =/

please let him get pass this smoothly..
hang in there baby....

beetin bought lunch & breakfast for me today! -hugs- l0ve her!

88

2006-09-05T21:14:00.000-07:00

busy busy!

its like the capts are finally doing their job by sending their traffic message reports on time! guess my e-mails worked on the operators and in turn the capts get pressurised! oh well at least things are more efficent now except when Singtel starts cocking up our accts!

almost twenty vessels are done! minus off the bunkers side when steven is doing it i guess i'm left with thirty more to go! Inmarsat bills are coming in next week! better hurry hurry before i go. at least i get most of it done then i wont give grace such a big headache!

bleahs but i wanna go onboard a big big vessel audit soon before my attachment ends! if not its not so nice when grace is paying me for the hours i din work. 2 more days to go! damn. hope capt mesbah is back by today then i can get to ask him! =))

yawns i saved filing for the noon in case i get too tired after lunch. erms correction is sleepy =X

bodyshop is having a fifty percent off! but mummy and i haven got a chance to go yet cos its at suntec. bleahs. ever since i did a mask for mummy last weekend she's like on the constant look out for skin products! wahahahas! but oh well i still prefer the face shop's mask more than missha's. more moisture! tho its jus 2 bucks more but i guess its worth it since it had more range. gurls! go try it! its damn nice.

i'm hestitating on whether i shld get the Vit E day cream now since body shop is having their anni now...blahs but like what darl says bet they will be having some kinda sales soon after this. l0ls.

okies. i've gotta go for lunch break now. =)

i wanna swim! but i'm having my menses now! =(

est! don rebond hair soo soon la. swim with me first =P

87

2006-08-30T20:16:00.000-07:00

high chance of grace offering me the 2 weeks hols job. great. i've got some money then. thinking of how to juggle my phone bills,insurance payments & transport fees when school reopen! -.- i'm thinking of coming back to weekends to work even. i told dad i'll find a way to settle all these and told him to concentrate on what he needs to.. he was beaming with pride then. sighs. i've got to find a job over d weekends like this man & making sure my grades are doing good so that he can have a huge load off his mind. i guess its worth it after all. jus to see daddy happy =)

-budget-

i'm seriously lacked of self discipline~ just becos i'm left with 20 bucks of my allowance this week. i spent it on buys off the auctions~

arrghs. STOP STOP STOP!

i realise i lost interest in clothes already. hahs. maybe becos i'm now doing my own ironing and laundry i find it such a hassel to do so much work. -.- oh well at least it cheers my mom up a l0t. so its worth it =) its nice to see her watching her own tv programs after work instead of doing her usual housework. guess my stuff had really caused much toil to her in the past

please please let grace agrees with my hourly rates request~

darl's prize presentation & POP is NEXT saturday! =))
mummy's cooking laksa for darl & me this COMING saturday!
i'm starting to love saturdays! hurray!

thank god my bill went down. heh =)

money money~ where art thou are u?

86

2006-08-27T22:54:00.000-07:00

last weekend was the best =) couldnt have been more contented.

spend my friday with the gurls. had est & yinn's bday celebration. really enjoyed myself thorougly.

had the craziest time singing the english words in the chinese songs. hahas know thats pathetic but xianie,ting,est & i seem pretty outdated with the current chinese songs. so i guess that the only way to amuse ourselves. l0ls.

had the craziest times too for the pre-celebration preparations. i know i did a little but makin est believing my crap sure wasnt easy! LOL.

blahs. but i had my headache coming back at the end of it. so i guess my batt was running pretty low.

but nevertheless good times spent. oh! and i l0ve it when we sang at the beginning together! -hugs!-

*-

sat was great! went to work with a groggy head and thank god i've got nothing much to do in office! headed home and had lunch before having my beauty nap for 5 hours! its been so long since i had such long naps! wooooo! and its extremely relaxing! went for realigious class after dat. managed to spend some time with darl on d phone before heading to slp!

*-

sunday was d best! =)) headed to east coast with darl. slacking by the beach. cycling and having fun at d jetty there "admiring" the VLCC & bunkers. guess both of us are kinda sick of seeing it. hahas. its amazing how come i used to be so amused to see them

till now i guessed i've seen
: a tanker carrier at dry dock
: a Floating Storage Tanker. which used to be one of Ocean Tankers' biggest carrier
: an audit on board a bunker

hmmms. i hope i can go for a sea trial soon! at least before i go? which is due in 9 days time! hahs!kinda hard hur.

bleahs and after cycling we went to have indian food! i almost finished the whole plate of dosai myself okie! lalalalalas~hiaks but i don like d minty dips! so spicy! thank god for the yogurt mans! hehs.

next we went bowling! bleahs. i had beginner's luck at first. but at last darl still won in d end! =( boooos! rematch rematch! i demand a rematch sooN!

hehs. sunday had never been more sweet than yesterday. =) had dinner wif grandma n keane's family after dat and chatted with darl for slping.

-hugs!

85

2006-08-24T00:14:00.000-07:00

women are tempremental. very in fact. i cant recall who told me about a this theory. but here's how it goes.

The mindset of Men are simple. It's till the extent of sleep is sleep. play is play.work is work. they seem to be able to concentrate on the things they do. & that made them extremely straight-forward as well. so they tend to only think in only one mindset.

Women are complicated creatures (the commonly used phrase. hahs) whenever they're doing something, they tend to think of other issues as well. their mindset its like a switchboard. in order to get them thinking straight in making a decision, you've got to make sure that the other buttons are on too. erms. the other buttons might include getting their emotional mindset straight, making sure they are not suffering from PMS or any sort, temprements & all. thats how tough it is to set them into thinking straight. but for men its jus so simple! he'll jus on "clear mindset" this button and that will get him right on track.

blahs. but at the end of the day no matter how complicated a woman may be there's always the pros side. they need constant assurance from the man they are with. & thats where she beocmes the "little rabbit" & she tends to be more sensitive to others too being the likable angel.

hahahas. at the end of the day i guess i just wanna bring a message across
working under a female boss is tough. but she tends to give you more appropraite encouragements at the right time. being more sensitive towards her employees' feelings tho the cons is never step on her tail [or you'll find it extremely hard for you to make her think positively of you again.] & you've got to bear with her mood swings at least once a week.

thoughts of an employee~ =)

84

2006-08-21T19:33:00.000-07:00

yawns. i've got three weeks of log book entries to fill up! guess i'm in the tuesdays blahs. no mood to do anything at all. almost done with GSM bills & i've got the misc ones, globewireless & the inmarsat ones to do~

was arguing with adrain regarding the log book issues. now i know where he could top the class everytime. he fill in his log book everyday mans~ -.- i guess i must make sure i'll be like alfian soon. going back to at least revise for some kinda tests which is like on a few weeks later but start muggin now kinda. -faints-

being top students are really not easy mans. but its amazing how darl can be one when he plays DOTA everyday then excluding the going out times, the nights when he was on d phone with me & having to reach home at 7 & watch TV aftertat. hmmmms.

oh well sat was fun. went out with hayley,stan & wyiteck at Holland V for supper. get to know some internal stuff too~ hmmms. oh well. don wanna think too much abt it since my attachment is ending soon. but i guess we all agreed on one thing. i can never come back and work full time. d management style just wont suit me. oh well! shall think abt that a couple of years later. since my priority shld be my studies now!

damns. more than 10 colleagues of mine claim i put on a lot a lot of weight for the past 2 weeks. and i cant swim n jog even! stupid ankle~

darl's back! weeee! =))

83

2006-08-18T02:35:00.000-07:00

i just came back from O.Prestige! nice nice! EXCEPT for the fall i had and i sprained my ankle, the time when i hit myself against the railings when i was climbing onboard and my d deep scratch mark i had on my thumb! the rest is nice!

the audits seem pretty easy and relax. oh! and the auditor is from Lloyd's named Capt David! nice guy and he relate many many experiences while he went past panama canal many many times! oh! and they told me how the ritual on each ship for king neptune who rumoured to be the king of all the seven seas! nice!

honestly i think i've been to the engine room so many times already. i can even identify the compressor, main engine, fresh water generator and all. the 2nd engineer seem shock when i told him i named him all these. l0ls. of cos what. i'm an DMR student's gf~ l0ls!! =P

oh! and d navigation bridge too! its still d same as usual except that i saw many many certs. once when i was so bored listening to them repeating the same old security measures, scott and i went down to the deck and start talking to teh bosun officer. l0ls. in hokkien! scott couldnt utter a word at all even!

well basically its a damn good experience to hear them audit going through all the documentation, proceduers and how capt david when around questioning the crew. oh yea! i had lunch on board again! hehs.

doze off while we're on the way back & harwin was worried i'll be angry since i cldnt eat much on board due to my diet restriction so she bought me kueh n hot milo! yummms! oh oh! she's bringing her son to a new playgroup tomorrow!

weees! my accounts aunties are willing to watch click with me! lalalalalas~

bleahs. mummy promised me a pair of new shoes too! l0ls. cos my green ones were really TATTERED AND TORN. & irene was asking if i quarrelled with my mom and dats why my mom couldnt be bothered to get me a new pair. =P

dinner with joe ma's family & grandma later too! grandma's bdae =)

okie okie gotta cia0s. =D

82

2006-08-16T22:51:00.000-07:00

yawns. nasi is really too filling that i'm feeling sleepy now.

gosh! i jus saw a gold wire mesh bag online. its really really nice! but i promised darl not to get anything off online anymore~ =/ but its really nice!

oh! mummy gave me my 18th bday present! l0ls. though its kinda super early but i guess she couldnt contain her excitement. sheesh. she's becoming a good shopper. managed to get my watch off a 20% sale. lucky lucky her! but i l0ve it soo much! i've waited since last dec alrights!

dar's getting me the other one too. but i'm still deciding which colour should i get. there's this dark green, light blue, red & beige. apparently there's the other colour but the sales lady couldnt recall. i think i becoming an overnight watch collector. =))

its been four days and i havent heard his voice. wondering how's he coping over there. oh well another four days to go. hang on =)

grandma's bday dinner's tomorrow. was thinking of chipping in with my mom. =/ i realised my mom is becoming a classic case. i was just clearing my inbox thrash can just now and i realise mummy send me 4 e-mails a day. -.-

oh yeah i'm finding people to watch click with me! anyone interested? please spare some time to watch it with me!!

everyone's asking me when i'm ending my attachment. just now when i was walking past the accounts i accidentally heard they're pooling in money to get me something! wahahahas! think julie and the others are planning something too! but they jus simply refuse to tell me! but oh well.. the suspense is killing me!

i'm going on board tomorrow! ocean prestige! oh yeah! gonna see how they're gonna audit the vessel. jus a small vessel i heard but i wanna see how the big big classification society audit them! esp Lloyd's! Lloyd's! hahas. think i'm still rejoicing over my watch.

i was admiring my perfume collection yesterday! its nice to see my lit glass bottles on the glass shelf. everything seems to be so transparent but with different shades of colours when you look through them. =) oh and i've added the new perfume darl've got me =) i'm waiting for harwin's response for my burberry london! hehs. one new collection added then!

wondering what dearest joe ma will get me this year! guess guess guess!

this year will be an extreme exception i guess. i wont be in s'pore on 2 days in a row including my bday. but the year had been a great one! so no complains! =D

i'm becoming a real slacker now. having tea breaks, extremely long lunch breaks, my colleagues kept calling me or msn sessions. l0ls. & online shopping with my aunties! wahahahahas!

gurls! lets meet up soon after ur exams ok! -hugs-

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2006-08-07T07:45:00.000-07:00

grrs. mummy is saying i'm torturing darl & she's gonna complain to him about mE not completing my project yet! sheeesh! i think he's getting soooo much attention now!

NO FAIR!

daddy says mummy is biased! AGREE to a CERTAIN extent.

BCOS HE'S BIASED TOO!

d moment daddy got off the plane that time and FINALLY had some quiet time with me when we're out of the airport.. the very FIRST thing he asked. "How's David?" grrs. i'm having a BAD cough then with my nose BLOCKED! & thats d FIRST thing he asked!! sighs~ how nice!

bleahs. but i'm going to see the stars tomorrow! as promised =))
watcHed my super ex gurlfren after that and head home for a good rest.

ok! i know i'm full of complains. but its just so funny that my parents' attention is on him INSTEAD of ME!

blahs~ thumps off to proj!

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2006-08-05T22:12:00.000-07:00

be happy be happy! i cant let myself drown in the pits forever! cheer up! =) daddy's right. i cant always expect thats someone who is always there for me to be taken for granted. i don want these stupid thots to take me away from any great moments

darl.. thanks for all of your reassurance. =))

anyway, this entry is dedicated to my dearest babe. you know who you are. cos i don think our thinking can be that far. since we're just two weeks apart -winks-

hey i'm glad you've finally found someone to pour out your woes. i know that i'm not the one that you always turn to since you always think you're ger's n my big sista & that you've got to be strong for us. but i want you to know that you're never a burden to me. at times i just wanted to see how you are. even tho you don ans my calls at times. but after reading your blog & know that you're safe and sound tho troubled but at least that set my mind at rest. i really hope that you'll be able to take down the strong front of yours. take a breather. you deserved it. i know its not easy for you to pour out your woes to. but if one day when you couldnt find someone. please remember i'm always there to lend my ears. don ever think i've got my own set of problems to worry as well. cos you dont know how much it cheers me up when you come to me & need a listening ear. do you still remember the time when you approached me when you're in tears that night? you dont know how glad i was. tho i'm sorry that i didnt managed to ans your call. but its that kinda undescribeable happiness that you thot of me when you needed someone. i really hope that this tough period for you will pass soon.

=)

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2006-08-03T20:56:00.000-07:00

i hate to face crossroads in my life. just when i'm passionate about something and the job offerings start coming up. someone would then start making comments. the maritime industry will never be a place where females will have a stand. why isiz that patsy is able to do it then? meiyian? haven they've been far enough? i'm considering sigma & ocean tankers now. grace just asked me about it. i know its meant well for me by asking me not to be coming back so i can immerse in other co.'s culture and maybe explore more. but on d hand.. its just a PT job over d hols. how well can i be adapting & seeing new things then? moreover its hard to come by to have a PT job which is related in ur course of study! arrghs. decisions decisions. i want to be in d industry. i donno. but somehow whenever i'm seeing those vessels. hearing about them. looking at d development of the ports. negotiations and all... i feel so bewildered by it and at the same time bond towards it. mummy's in this line. darl too... its just that kinda special & fulfilling feeling i hate to abandon and never want too. but its a fact that its a guy dominated industry. but i'm determined to make d most out of it. excel in it. & eventually proud of it.

each time whenever i'm at d shipyard. darl's words will be flowing in my mind. about what he saw & experience. each time when i read more about d ports & diff kinda shipments, mummy & my conversations will be filled with enthu tones and all. its that kinda bonding. that kinda sense of belonging.

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2006-08-02T08:22:00.000-07:00

I cant think of my HR's Obj now. I'm so dead. All that's floating in my mind is the staff retention & competence. I guess i'll have to skip lunch tomorrow & start seating down to read the manuals. sighs~ if only i cld get hold of all the controlled copy of respective responsibilites. sheesh what am i blabbering now? its CONTROLLED COPY! i should be saying my thanks now that i've got safety settled. urrghs!

i guess i haven faced the fact that.. you'll be sailing someday. i shldnt have lost my control & made u worried when what you've said is true. i'm sorry. but you were right. what is these two weeks as compared to the months you'll be away after ur NS. i guess i have been taking our nightly talks for granted & kept yearning for more that i've seen to have forgotten that you're supposed to be sailing now. we'll be then only be talking once a week. i wont be seeing you for months instead of just a week once. i wouldnt be receiving your morning messages like now but maybe only twice max a week. i'm so sorry for being stupid & kept wanting the whole world to give in to me. you were right i had to set my priorities right. i shldnt be making mummy changing her schedule for me. i had to go ahead with it. two weeks will pass soon.. & moreover i'll be seeing you on twice a week now. i haven been contented with what i had but instead kept wallowing in my crap feelings thinking that why cant we be like in the past. you're about to embark on your career soon then... i should be cherishing with what i had now.. i'm sorry for making you worried darl. i'm sorry. i shldnt have lost control & having you then to be there for me after your tedious & long trainings. i'm really sorry darl. i'm sorry.

i guess i've got to get down to earth now and get it right in my head that... darl have to sail someday. he have too. & its not aniting that anyone can do anything about it.