Let my wings take me there...
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
high chance of grace offering me the 2 weeks hols job. great. i've got some money then. thinking of how to juggle my phone bills,insurance payments & transport fees when school reopen! -.- i'm thinking of coming back to weekends to work even. i told dad i'll find a way to settle all these and told him to concentrate on what he needs to.. he was beaming with pride then. sighs. i've got to find a job over d weekends like this man & making sure my grades are doing good so that he can have a huge load off his mind. i guess its worth it after all. jus to see daddy happy =)
-budget-
i'm seriously lacked of self discipline~ just becos i'm left with 20 bucks of my allowance this week. i spent it on buys off the auctions~
arrghs. STOP STOP STOP!
i realise i lost interest in clothes already. hahs. maybe becos i'm now doing my own ironing and laundry i find it such a hassel to do so much work. -.- oh well at least it cheers my mom up a l0t. so its worth it =) its nice to see her watching her own tv programs after work instead of doing her usual housework. guess my stuff had really caused much toil to her in the past
please please let grace agrees with my hourly rates request~
darl's prize presentation & POP is NEXT saturday! =))
mummy's cooking laksa for darl & me this COMING saturday!
i'm starting to love saturdays! hurray!
thank god my bill went down. heh =)
money money~ where art thou are u?
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Sunday, August 27, 2006
last weekend was the best =) couldnt have been more contented.
spend my friday with the gurls. had est & yinn's bday celebration. really enjoyed myself thorougly.
had the craziest time singing the english words in the chinese songs. hahas know thats pathetic but xianie,ting,est & i seem pretty outdated with the current chinese songs. so i guess that the only way to amuse ourselves. l0ls.
had the craziest times too for the pre-celebration preparations. i know i did a little but makin est believing my crap sure wasnt easy! LOL.
blahs. but i had my headache coming back at the end of it. so i guess my batt was running pretty low.
but nevertheless good times spent. oh! and i l0ve it when we sang at the beginning together! -hugs!-
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sat was great! went to work with a groggy head and thank god i've got nothing much to do in office! headed home and had lunch before having my beauty nap for 5 hours! its been so long since i had such long naps! wooooo! and its extremely relaxing! went for realigious class after dat. managed to spend some time with darl on d phone before heading to slp!
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sunday was d best! =)) headed to east coast with darl. slacking by the beach. cycling and having fun at d jetty there "admiring" the VLCC & bunkers. guess both of us are kinda sick of seeing it. hahas. its amazing how come i used to be so amused to see them
till now i guessed i've seen
: a tanker carrier at dry dock
: a Floating Storage Tanker. which used to be one of Ocean Tankers' biggest carrier
: an audit on board a bunker
hmmms. i hope i can go for a sea trial soon! at least before i go? which is due in 9 days time! hahs!kinda hard hur.
bleahs and after cycling we went to have indian food! i almost finished the whole plate of dosai myself okie! lalalalalas~hiaks but i don like d minty dips! so spicy! thank god for the yogurt mans! hehs.
next we went bowling! bleahs. i had beginner's luck at first. but at last darl still won in d end! =( boooos! rematch rematch! i demand a rematch sooN!
hehs. sunday had never been more sweet than yesterday. =) had dinner wif grandma n keane's family after dat and chatted with darl for slping.
-hugs!
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
women are tempremental. very in fact. i cant recall who told me about a this theory. but here's how it goes.
The mindset of Men are simple. It's till the extent of sleep is sleep. play is play.work is work. they seem to be able to concentrate on the things they do. & that made them extremely straight-forward as well. so they tend to only think in only one mindset.
Women are complicated creatures (the commonly used phrase. hahs) whenever they're doing something, they tend to think of other issues as well. their mindset its like a switchboard. in order to get them thinking straight in making a decision, you've got to make sure that the other buttons are on too. erms. the other buttons might include getting their emotional mindset straight, making sure they are not suffering from PMS or any sort, temprements & all. thats how tough it is to set them into thinking straight. but for men its jus so simple! he'll jus on "clear mindset" this button and that will get him right on track.
blahs. but at the end of the day no matter how complicated a woman may be there's always the pros side. they need constant assurance from the man they are with. & thats where she beocmes the "little rabbit" & she tends to be more sensitive to others too being the likable angel.
hahahas. at the end of the day i guess i just wanna bring a message across
working under a female boss is tough. but she tends to give you more appropraite encouragements at the right time. being more sensitive towards her employees' feelings tho the cons is never step on her tail [or you'll find it extremely hard for you to make her think positively of you again.] & you've got to bear with her mood swings at least once a week.
thoughts of an employee~ =)
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Monday, August 21, 2006
yawns. i've got three weeks of log book entries to fill up! guess i'm in the tuesdays blahs. no mood to do anything at all. almost done with GSM bills & i've got the misc ones, globewireless & the inmarsat ones to do~
was arguing with adrain regarding the log book issues. now i know where he could top the class everytime. he fill in his log book everyday mans~ -.- i guess i must make sure i'll be like alfian soon. going back to at least revise for some kinda tests which is like on a few weeks later but start muggin now kinda. -faints-
being top students are really not easy mans. but its amazing how darl can be one when he plays DOTA everyday then excluding the going out times, the nights when he was on d phone with me & having to reach home at 7 & watch TV aftertat. hmmmms.
oh well sat was fun. went out with hayley,stan & wyiteck at Holland V for supper. get to know some internal stuff too~ hmmms. oh well. don wanna think too much abt it since my attachment is ending soon. but i guess we all agreed on one thing. i can never come back and work full time. d management style just wont suit me. oh well! shall think abt that a couple of years later. since my priority shld be my studies now!
damns. more than 10 colleagues of mine claim i put on a lot a lot of weight for the past 2 weeks. and i cant swim n jog even! stupid ankle~
darl's back! weeee! =))
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Friday, August 18, 2006
i just came back from O.Prestige! nice nice! EXCEPT for the fall i had and i sprained my ankle, the time when i hit myself against the railings when i was climbing onboard and my d deep scratch mark i had on my thumb! the rest is nice!
the audits seem pretty easy and relax. oh! and the auditor is from Lloyd's named Capt David! nice guy and he relate many many experiences while he went past panama canal many many times! oh! and they told me how the ritual on each ship for king neptune who rumoured to be the king of all the seven seas! nice!
honestly i think i've been to the engine room so many times already. i can even identify the compressor, main engine, fresh water generator and all. the 2nd engineer seem shock when i told him i named him all these. l0ls. of cos what. i'm an DMR student's gf~ l0ls!! =P
oh! and d navigation bridge too! its still d same as usual except that i saw many many certs. once when i was so bored listening to them repeating the same old security measures, scott and i went down to the deck and start talking to teh bosun officer. l0ls. in hokkien! scott couldnt utter a word at all even!
well basically its a damn good experience to hear them audit going through all the documentation, proceduers and how capt david when around questioning the crew. oh yea! i had lunch on board again! hehs.
doze off while we're on the way back & harwin was worried i'll be angry since i cldnt eat much on board due to my diet restriction so she bought me kueh n hot milo! yummms! oh oh! she's bringing her son to a new playgroup tomorrow!
weees! my accounts aunties are willing to watch click with me! lalalalalas~
bleahs. mummy promised me a pair of new shoes too! l0ls. cos my green ones were really TATTERED AND TORN. & irene was asking if i quarrelled with my mom and dats why my mom couldnt be bothered to get me a new pair. =P
dinner with joe ma's family & grandma later too! grandma's bdae =)
okie okie gotta cia0s. =D
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
yawns. nasi is really too filling that i'm feeling sleepy now.
gosh! i jus saw a gold wire mesh bag online. its really really nice! but i promised darl not to get anything off online anymore~ =/ but its really nice!
oh! mummy gave me my 18th bday present! l0ls. though its kinda super early but i guess she couldnt contain her excitement. sheesh. she's becoming a good shopper. managed to get my watch off a 20% sale. lucky lucky her! but i l0ve it soo much! i've waited since last dec alrights!
dar's getting me the other one too. but i'm still deciding which colour should i get. there's this dark green, light blue, red & beige. apparently there's the other colour but the sales lady couldnt recall. i think i becoming an overnight watch collector. =))
its been four days and i havent heard his voice. wondering how's he coping over there. oh well another four days to go. hang on =)
grandma's bday dinner's tomorrow. was thinking of chipping in with my mom. =/ i realised my mom is becoming a classic case. i was just clearing my inbox thrash can just now and i realise mummy send me 4 e-mails a day. -.-
oh yeah i'm finding people to watch click with me! anyone interested? please spare some time to watch it with me!!
everyone's asking me when i'm ending my attachment. just now when i was walking past the accounts i accidentally heard they're pooling in money to get me something! wahahahas! think julie and the others are planning something too! but they jus simply refuse to tell me! but oh well.. the suspense is killing me!
i'm going on board tomorrow! ocean prestige! oh yeah! gonna see how they're gonna audit the vessel. jus a small vessel i heard but i wanna see how the big big classification society audit them! esp Lloyd's! Lloyd's! hahas. think i'm still rejoicing over my watch.
i was admiring my perfume collection yesterday! its nice to see my lit glass bottles on the glass shelf. everything seems to be so transparent but with different shades of colours when you look through them. =) oh and i've added the new perfume darl've got me =) i'm waiting for harwin's response for my burberry london! hehs. one new collection added then!
wondering what dearest joe ma will get me this year! guess guess guess!
this year will be an extreme exception i guess. i wont be in s'pore on 2 days in a row including my bday. but the year had been a great one! so no complains! =D
i'm becoming a real slacker now. having tea breaks, extremely long lunch breaks, my colleagues kept calling me or msn sessions. l0ls. & online shopping with my aunties! wahahahahas!
gurls! lets meet up soon after ur exams ok! -hugs-
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Monday, August 07, 2006
grrs. mummy is saying i'm torturing darl & she's gonna complain to him about mE not completing my project yet! sheeesh! i think he's getting soooo much attention now!
NO FAIR!
daddy says mummy is biased! AGREE to a CERTAIN extent.
BCOS HE'S BIASED TOO!
d moment daddy got off the plane that time and FINALLY had some quiet time with me when we're out of the airport.. the very FIRST thing he asked. "How's David?" grrs. i'm having a BAD cough then with my nose BLOCKED! & thats d FIRST thing he asked!! sighs~ how nice!
bleahs. but i'm going to see the stars tomorrow! as promised =))
watcHed my super ex gurlfren after that and head home for a good rest.
ok! i know i'm full of complains. but its just so funny that my parents' attention is on him INSTEAD of ME!
blahs~ thumps off to proj!
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Saturday, August 05, 2006
be happy be happy! i cant let myself drown in the pits forever! cheer up! =) daddy's right. i cant always expect thats someone who is always there for me to be taken for granted. i don want these stupid thots to take me away from any great moments
darl.. thanks for all of your reassurance. =))
anyway, this entry is dedicated to my dearest babe. you know who you are. cos i don think our thinking can be that far. since we're just two weeks apart -winks-
hey i'm glad you've finally found someone to pour out your woes. i know that i'm not the one that you always turn to since you always think you're ger's n my big sista & that you've got to be strong for us. but i want you to know that you're never a burden to me. at times i just wanted to see how you are. even tho you don ans my calls at times. but after reading your blog & know that you're safe and sound tho troubled but at least that set my mind at rest. i really hope that you'll be able to take down the strong front of yours. take a breather. you deserved it. i know its not easy for you to pour out your woes to. but if one day when you couldnt find someone. please remember i'm always there to lend my ears. don ever think i've got my own set of problems to worry as well. cos you dont know how much it cheers me up when you come to me & need a listening ear. do you still remember the time when you approached me when you're in tears that night? you dont know how glad i was. tho i'm sorry that i didnt managed to ans your call. but its that kinda undescribeable happiness that you thot of me when you needed someone. i really hope that this tough period for you will pass soon.
=)
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Thursday, August 03, 2006
i hate to face crossroads in my life. just when i'm passionate about something and the job offerings start coming up. someone would then start making comments. the maritime industry will never be a place where females will have a stand. why isiz that patsy is able to do it then? meiyian? haven they've been far enough? i'm considering sigma & ocean tankers now. grace just asked me about it. i know its meant well for me by asking me not to be coming back so i can immerse in other co.'s culture and maybe explore more. but on d hand.. its just a PT job over d hols. how well can i be adapting & seeing new things then? moreover its hard to come by to have a PT job which is related in ur course of study! arrghs. decisions decisions. i want to be in d industry. i donno. but somehow whenever i'm seeing those vessels. hearing about them. looking at d development of the ports. negotiations and all... i feel so bewildered by it and at the same time bond towards it. mummy's in this line. darl too... its just that kinda special & fulfilling feeling i hate to abandon and never want too. but its a fact that its a guy dominated industry. but i'm determined to make d most out of it. excel in it. & eventually proud of it.
each time whenever i'm at d shipyard. darl's words will be flowing in my mind. about what he saw & experience. each time when i read more about d ports & diff kinda shipments, mummy & my conversations will be filled with enthu tones and all. its that kinda bonding. that kinda sense of belonging.
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
I cant think of my HR's Obj now. I'm so dead. All that's floating in my mind is the staff retention & competence. I guess i'll have to skip lunch tomorrow & start seating down to read the manuals. sighs~ if only i cld get hold of all the controlled copy of respective responsibilites. sheesh what am i blabbering now? its CONTROLLED COPY! i should be saying my thanks now that i've got safety settled. urrghs!
i guess i haven faced the fact that.. you'll be sailing someday. i shldnt have lost my control & made u worried when what you've said is true. i'm sorry. but you were right. what is these two weeks as compared to the months you'll be away after ur NS. i guess i have been taking our nightly talks for granted & kept yearning for more that i've seen to have forgotten that you're supposed to be sailing now. we'll be then only be talking once a week. i wont be seeing you for months instead of just a week once. i wouldnt be receiving your morning messages like now but maybe only twice max a week. i'm so sorry for being stupid & kept wanting the whole world to give in to me. you were right i had to set my priorities right. i shldnt be making mummy changing her schedule for me. i had to go ahead with it. two weeks will pass soon.. & moreover i'll be seeing you on twice a week now. i haven been contented with what i had but instead kept wallowing in my crap feelings thinking that why cant we be like in the past. you're about to embark on your career soon then... i should be cherishing with what i had now.. i'm sorry for making you worried darl. i'm sorry. i shldnt have lost control & having you then to be there for me after your tedious & long trainings. i'm really sorry darl. i'm sorry.
i guess i've got to get down to earth now and get it right in my head that... darl have to sail someday. he have too. & its not aniting that anyone can do anything about it.
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high chance of grace offering me the 2 weeks hols job. great. i've got some money then. thinking of how to juggle my phone bills,insurance payments & transport fees when school reopen! -.- i'm thinking of coming back to weekends to work even. i told dad i'll find a way to settle all these and told him to concentrate on what he needs to.. he was beaming with pride then. sighs. i've got to find a job over d weekends like this man & making sure my grades are doing good so that he can have a huge load off his mind. i guess its worth it after all. jus to see daddy happy =)
-budget-
i'm seriously lacked of self discipline~ just becos i'm left with 20 bucks of my allowance this week. i spent it on buys off the auctions~
arrghs. STOP STOP STOP!
i realise i lost interest in clothes already. hahs. maybe becos i'm now doing my own ironing and laundry i find it such a hassel to do so much work. -.- oh well at least it cheers my mom up a l0t. so its worth it =) its nice to see her watching her own tv programs after work instead of doing her usual housework. guess my stuff had really caused much toil to her in the past
please please let grace agrees with my hourly rates request~
darl's prize presentation & POP is NEXT saturday! =))
mummy's cooking laksa for darl & me this COMING saturday!
i'm starting to love saturdays! hurray!
thank god my bill went down. heh =)
money money~ where art thou are u?
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Sunday, August 27, 2006
last weekend was the best =) couldnt have been more contented.
spend my friday with the gurls. had est & yinn's bday celebration. really enjoyed myself thorougly.
had the craziest time singing the english words in the chinese songs. hahas know thats pathetic but xianie,ting,est & i seem pretty outdated with the current chinese songs. so i guess that the only way to amuse ourselves. l0ls.
had the craziest times too for the pre-celebration preparations. i know i did a little but makin est believing my crap sure wasnt easy! LOL.
blahs. but i had my headache coming back at the end of it. so i guess my batt was running pretty low.
but nevertheless good times spent. oh! and i l0ve it when we sang at the beginning together! -hugs!-
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sat was great! went to work with a groggy head and thank god i've got nothing much to do in office! headed home and had lunch before having my beauty nap for 5 hours! its been so long since i had such long naps! wooooo! and its extremely relaxing! went for realigious class after dat. managed to spend some time with darl on d phone before heading to slp!
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sunday was d best! =)) headed to east coast with darl. slacking by the beach. cycling and having fun at d jetty there "admiring" the VLCC & bunkers. guess both of us are kinda sick of seeing it. hahas. its amazing how come i used to be so amused to see them
till now i guessed i've seen
: a tanker carrier at dry dock
: a Floating Storage Tanker. which used to be one of Ocean Tankers' biggest carrier
: an audit on board a bunker
hmmms. i hope i can go for a sea trial soon! at least before i go? which is due in 9 days time! hahs!kinda hard hur.
bleahs and after cycling we went to have indian food! i almost finished the whole plate of dosai myself okie! lalalalalas~hiaks but i don like d minty dips! so spicy! thank god for the yogurt mans! hehs.
next we went bowling! bleahs. i had beginner's luck at first. but at last darl still won in d end! =( boooos! rematch rematch! i demand a rematch sooN!
hehs. sunday had never been more sweet than yesterday. =) had dinner wif grandma n keane's family after dat and chatted with darl for slping.
-hugs!
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
women are tempremental. very in fact. i cant recall who told me about a this theory. but here's how it goes.
The mindset of Men are simple. It's till the extent of sleep is sleep. play is play.work is work. they seem to be able to concentrate on the things they do. & that made them extremely straight-forward as well. so they tend to only think in only one mindset.
Women are complicated creatures (the commonly used phrase. hahs) whenever they're doing something, they tend to think of other issues as well. their mindset its like a switchboard. in order to get them thinking straight in making a decision, you've got to make sure that the other buttons are on too. erms. the other buttons might include getting their emotional mindset straight, making sure they are not suffering from PMS or any sort, temprements & all. thats how tough it is to set them into thinking straight. but for men its jus so simple! he'll jus on "clear mindset" this button and that will get him right on track.
blahs. but at the end of the day no matter how complicated a woman may be there's always the pros side. they need constant assurance from the man they are with. & thats where she beocmes the "little rabbit" & she tends to be more sensitive to others too being the likable angel.
hahahas. at the end of the day i guess i just wanna bring a message across
working under a female boss is tough. but she tends to give you more appropraite encouragements at the right time. being more sensitive towards her employees' feelings tho the cons is never step on her tail [or you'll find it extremely hard for you to make her think positively of you again.] & you've got to bear with her mood swings at least once a week.
thoughts of an employee~ =)
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Monday, August 21, 2006
yawns. i've got three weeks of log book entries to fill up! guess i'm in the tuesdays blahs. no mood to do anything at all. almost done with GSM bills & i've got the misc ones, globewireless & the inmarsat ones to do~
was arguing with adrain regarding the log book issues. now i know where he could top the class everytime. he fill in his log book everyday mans~ -.- i guess i must make sure i'll be like alfian soon. going back to at least revise for some kinda tests which is like on a few weeks later but start muggin now kinda. -faints-
being top students are really not easy mans. but its amazing how darl can be one when he plays DOTA everyday then excluding the going out times, the nights when he was on d phone with me & having to reach home at 7 & watch TV aftertat. hmmmms.
oh well sat was fun. went out with hayley,stan & wyiteck at Holland V for supper. get to know some internal stuff too~ hmmms. oh well. don wanna think too much abt it since my attachment is ending soon. but i guess we all agreed on one thing. i can never come back and work full time. d management style just wont suit me. oh well! shall think abt that a couple of years later. since my priority shld be my studies now!
damns. more than 10 colleagues of mine claim i put on a lot a lot of weight for the past 2 weeks. and i cant swim n jog even! stupid ankle~
darl's back! weeee! =))
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Friday, August 18, 2006
i just came back from O.Prestige! nice nice! EXCEPT for the fall i had and i sprained my ankle, the time when i hit myself against the railings when i was climbing onboard and my d deep scratch mark i had on my thumb! the rest is nice!
the audits seem pretty easy and relax. oh! and the auditor is from Lloyd's named Capt David! nice guy and he relate many many experiences while he went past panama canal many many times! oh! and they told me how the ritual on each ship for king neptune who rumoured to be the king of all the seven seas! nice!
honestly i think i've been to the engine room so many times already. i can even identify the compressor, main engine, fresh water generator and all. the 2nd engineer seem shock when i told him i named him all these. l0ls. of cos what. i'm an DMR student's gf~ l0ls!! =P
oh! and d navigation bridge too! its still d same as usual except that i saw many many certs. once when i was so bored listening to them repeating the same old security measures, scott and i went down to the deck and start talking to teh bosun officer. l0ls. in hokkien! scott couldnt utter a word at all even!
well basically its a damn good experience to hear them audit going through all the documentation, proceduers and how capt david when around questioning the crew. oh yea! i had lunch on board again! hehs.
doze off while we're on the way back & harwin was worried i'll be angry since i cldnt eat much on board due to my diet restriction so she bought me kueh n hot milo! yummms! oh oh! she's bringing her son to a new playgroup tomorrow!
weees! my accounts aunties are willing to watch click with me! lalalalalas~
bleahs. mummy promised me a pair of new shoes too! l0ls. cos my green ones were really TATTERED AND TORN. & irene was asking if i quarrelled with my mom and dats why my mom couldnt be bothered to get me a new pair. =P
dinner with joe ma's family & grandma later too! grandma's bdae =)
okie okie gotta cia0s. =D
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
yawns. nasi is really too filling that i'm feeling sleepy now.
gosh! i jus saw a gold wire mesh bag online. its really really nice! but i promised darl not to get anything off online anymore~ =/ but its really nice!
oh! mummy gave me my 18th bday present! l0ls. though its kinda super early but i guess she couldnt contain her excitement. sheesh. she's becoming a good shopper. managed to get my watch off a 20% sale. lucky lucky her! but i l0ve it soo much! i've waited since last dec alrights!
dar's getting me the other one too. but i'm still deciding which colour should i get. there's this dark green, light blue, red & beige. apparently there's the other colour but the sales lady couldnt recall. i think i becoming an overnight watch collector. =))
its been four days and i havent heard his voice. wondering how's he coping over there. oh well another four days to go. hang on =)
grandma's bday dinner's tomorrow. was thinking of chipping in with my mom. =/ i realised my mom is becoming a classic case. i was just clearing my inbox thrash can just now and i realise mummy send me 4 e-mails a day. -.-
oh yeah i'm finding people to watch click with me! anyone interested? please spare some time to watch it with me!!
everyone's asking me when i'm ending my attachment. just now when i was walking past the accounts i accidentally heard they're pooling in money to get me something! wahahahas! think julie and the others are planning something too! but they jus simply refuse to tell me! but oh well.. the suspense is killing me!
i'm going on board tomorrow! ocean prestige! oh yeah! gonna see how they're gonna audit the vessel. jus a small vessel i heard but i wanna see how the big big classification society audit them! esp Lloyd's! Lloyd's! hahas. think i'm still rejoicing over my watch.
i was admiring my perfume collection yesterday! its nice to see my lit glass bottles on the glass shelf. everything seems to be so transparent but with different shades of colours when you look through them. =) oh and i've added the new perfume darl've got me =) i'm waiting for harwin's response for my burberry london! hehs. one new collection added then!
wondering what dearest joe ma will get me this year! guess guess guess!
this year will be an extreme exception i guess. i wont be in s'pore on 2 days in a row including my bday. but the year had been a great one! so no complains! =D
i'm becoming a real slacker now. having tea breaks, extremely long lunch breaks, my colleagues kept calling me or msn sessions. l0ls. & online shopping with my aunties! wahahahahas!
gurls! lets meet up soon after ur exams ok! -hugs-
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Monday, August 07, 2006
grrs. mummy is saying i'm torturing darl & she's gonna complain to him about mE not completing my project yet! sheeesh! i think he's getting soooo much attention now!
NO FAIR!
daddy says mummy is biased! AGREE to a CERTAIN extent.
BCOS HE'S BIASED TOO!
d moment daddy got off the plane that time and FINALLY had some quiet time with me when we're out of the airport.. the very FIRST thing he asked. "How's David?" grrs. i'm having a BAD cough then with my nose BLOCKED! & thats d FIRST thing he asked!! sighs~ how nice!
bleahs. but i'm going to see the stars tomorrow! as promised =))
watcHed my super ex gurlfren after that and head home for a good rest.
ok! i know i'm full of complains. but its just so funny that my parents' attention is on him INSTEAD of ME!
blahs~ thumps off to proj!
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Saturday, August 05, 2006
be happy be happy! i cant let myself drown in the pits forever! cheer up! =) daddy's right. i cant always expect thats someone who is always there for me to be taken for granted. i don want these stupid thots to take me away from any great moments
darl.. thanks for all of your reassurance. =))
anyway, this entry is dedicated to my dearest babe. you know who you are. cos i don think our thinking can be that far. since we're just two weeks apart -winks-
hey i'm glad you've finally found someone to pour out your woes. i know that i'm not the one that you always turn to since you always think you're ger's n my big sista & that you've got to be strong for us. but i want you to know that you're never a burden to me. at times i just wanted to see how you are. even tho you don ans my calls at times. but after reading your blog & know that you're safe and sound tho troubled but at least that set my mind at rest. i really hope that you'll be able to take down the strong front of yours. take a breather. you deserved it. i know its not easy for you to pour out your woes to. but if one day when you couldnt find someone. please remember i'm always there to lend my ears. don ever think i've got my own set of problems to worry as well. cos you dont know how much it cheers me up when you come to me & need a listening ear. do you still remember the time when you approached me when you're in tears that night? you dont know how glad i was. tho i'm sorry that i didnt managed to ans your call. but its that kinda undescribeable happiness that you thot of me when you needed someone. i really hope that this tough period for you will pass soon.
=)
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Thursday, August 03, 2006
i hate to face crossroads in my life. just when i'm passionate about something and the job offerings start coming up. someone would then start making comments. the maritime industry will never be a place where females will have a stand. why isiz that patsy is able to do it then? meiyian? haven they've been far enough? i'm considering sigma & ocean tankers now. grace just asked me about it. i know its meant well for me by asking me not to be coming back so i can immerse in other co.'s culture and maybe explore more. but on d hand.. its just a PT job over d hols. how well can i be adapting & seeing new things then? moreover its hard to come by to have a PT job which is related in ur course of study! arrghs. decisions decisions. i want to be in d industry. i donno. but somehow whenever i'm seeing those vessels. hearing about them. looking at d development of the ports. negotiations and all... i feel so bewildered by it and at the same time bond towards it. mummy's in this line. darl too... its just that kinda special & fulfilling feeling i hate to abandon and never want too. but its a fact that its a guy dominated industry. but i'm determined to make d most out of it. excel in it. & eventually proud of it.
each time whenever i'm at d shipyard. darl's words will be flowing in my mind. about what he saw & experience. each time when i read more about d ports & diff kinda shipments, mummy & my conversations will be filled with enthu tones and all. its that kinda bonding. that kinda sense of belonging.
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
I cant think of my HR's Obj now. I'm so dead. All that's floating in my mind is the staff retention & competence. I guess i'll have to skip lunch tomorrow & start seating down to read the manuals. sighs~ if only i cld get hold of all the controlled copy of respective responsibilites. sheesh what am i blabbering now? its CONTROLLED COPY! i should be saying my thanks now that i've got safety settled. urrghs!
i guess i haven faced the fact that.. you'll be sailing someday. i shldnt have lost my control & made u worried when what you've said is true. i'm sorry. but you were right. what is these two weeks as compared to the months you'll be away after ur NS. i guess i have been taking our nightly talks for granted & kept yearning for more that i've seen to have forgotten that you're supposed to be sailing now. we'll be then only be talking once a week. i wont be seeing you for months instead of just a week once. i wouldnt be receiving your morning messages like now but maybe only twice max a week. i'm so sorry for being stupid & kept wanting the whole world to give in to me. you were right i had to set my priorities right. i shldnt be making mummy changing her schedule for me. i had to go ahead with it. two weeks will pass soon.. & moreover i'll be seeing you on twice a week now. i haven been contented with what i had but instead kept wallowing in my crap feelings thinking that why cant we be like in the past. you're about to embark on your career soon then... i should be cherishing with what i had now.. i'm sorry for making you worried darl. i'm sorry. i shldnt have lost control & having you then to be there for me after your tedious & long trainings. i'm really sorry darl. i'm sorry.
i guess i've got to get down to earth now and get it right in my head that... darl have to sail someday. he have too. & its not aniting that anyone can do anything about it.
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